Love Me Worse 2

The Becoming Of Being

It had to come to this it had to be this way she has done way too much to me over these years she has caused me so much pain and agony

I still have nightmares I can't escape from...I still randomly reminisce on the trauma she caused me

I was just a kid and she is my mother she should've protected me,she should've kept me safe but instead she pushed me Into harms way just so for her own personal gain

She fucked me up shes the reason why Im failing in my part of my marriage the reason why I have so much anxiety and anger built inside of my heart

Its like it all hit me at once now were on this bathroom floor fighting as if she was never my mother and I was never her child

Funny thing is I was only doing my mama the same way she had did me for years

dirty

"Andrea stop your pregnant!"My auntie kept crying out loudly

On top of her attacking her I was in a rage I looked her in her eyes and asked her "do you know what those grown ass men did to me!"I said fighting back tears because I done cried so much about it.....I just cant get myself to drop one more tear I was more angry than anything

I hated her so much

"You mustve of liked it you keep doing it!"She said with this evil look on her face

I lost control I grabbed her head by her hair tighly and I bashed it on the hard cold bathroom floor

"I was a kid! I was your kid!"I screamed as I kept banging her head on the floor

"Andrea Stop!"My auntie screaming

"Hey! What the hell is going on"my father said walking in

my daddy pulled me up off her

She leaked blood from her eye

I didn't feel bad I didn't feel bad anything untill I saw my Auntie whos 8 months pregnant just sobbing sorrowfully

"How you could you make her do that Stacy she is your child"Auntie whimpered

"Do what"My father asked

" Stacy was making Andrea sleep with men for money!"She said

"When did this happen!"My father asked

Im sick of hiding me trauma it had to come out

"Andrea!"My father shouted furiously at me

"I was 14 when it first started happening it didn't stop till I moved into the apartment you and Auntie cosigned me for"I said

My mother finally got off the ground

"Shes lyin!"My mother screamed she triggered me once more

I tried to put my hands on her again but my father held me back"Im not lying bitch you know what you did to me and your are going to admit it" I yelled

"Is that why you use to cry when we sent you home all those weekends"My Auntie asked

"Yes! Its why I moved out at 17 I couldnt keep letting her get in my head it was wrong it felt wrong I felt disgusting I still feel disgusting"I said breaking into tears

"Because of her!"I cried out

My daddy held me and I just started crying in his chest

"Why stacy! Why !you know what we went through as kids why would you do that to her"My auntie cried out

"Shut the fuck up Sky this is my daughter! Mines !"My mother screamed loudly at my auntie

"No this is my daughter! And I swear on her life Stacy bitch if you wasn't a woman bitch"He said before crying himself