My Gabriel is a Demon

Chapter 5: Loving you is so bittersweet

Two days have already passed during which I felt more miserable than anyone else on the planet . 

Ellie was obviously sweet talking Gabriel all the time and I tryed my best to act normal and unaffected . 

I think Gabriel noticed the change in the way I'm acting towards him , I bet he thinks I am weird , 

just few days ago , we were getting closer and now I'm avoiding him and answering him coldly . 

Ellie didn't ask him to go with her yet . Tomorrow is  her last chance , how I wish he refuses .

I am sorry Ellie , I can't bless your decision , I just can't . 

 I was lost on those thoughts when the bell of the door rang . 

-Ellie , can you please open the door !

-' On my way to do it . '  she quickly replied .

When I didn't hear the door close after  some minutes passed , I went to check on her , only to see that the one she was talking to was none other than Gabriel .

I didn't know what was going on but Ellie smiled at me when she saw me coming and being her best friend for years I just knew what she was going to do .  

-' So Dr Gabriel , I was planning to go and see you tomorrow but well since you are already here ...I actually want you to accompany me to the coming gathering !'

He was kind of surprised and  didn't know what to say . The straightforwardness of Ellie's request shouldn't have been a surprise to him  , it's not like he didn't get the hints during these past days . He then , in a quick gesture , looked at me for what seemed to be an eternity for me .

I was fighting against my whole body which suddenly became stiff and I felt awkward . I was trying my best to hold my tears , praying that both Ellie and Gabriel wouldn't notice it . And then It happened , my stupid mouth once again failed me :

-" yeh , you should do that . That's great , you both will definitely look amazing together!"

did my voice tremble when I said it ? I don't know ! I couldn't even hear it , my head was a complete mess . 

Something strange happened, Gabriel's expression changed . I do not know if it was just my imagination but  I think he was bothered and maybe a little angry .

But then , after he fixed me with his sharp eyes for a few seconds , he just smiled at her and said  :

-"  Why not !  I'll come and pick you up , let's say at 9 ?! " 

 Ellie, exited :  - '   Sure !  '

Ellie grabbed his hand and she wanted him to come in and to stay longer , at that moment I felt like dying .

I lifted my head to look at him only to meet with his eyes and this time he looked at me with an empty gaze . I sure don't know what he is thinking . But one thing I'm certain of is that with the beautiful playful Ellie next to him , it's really over for me !

Who was I fooling anyway , I knew from the start that he was out of my reach and not to mention how I was treating him whenever he started a conversation with me .He must be thinking I am a retard or something .And I am sure that he feels I'm an eyesore since I'm living with Ellie in the same house.

I couldn't take the sight of both of them together so I excused my self and went upstairs . I wanted to look back at least once but I didn't have the courage to do it . Once I heard the door close , I did what I knew best  and acted as if nothing happened . 

After dinner , I pretended  that I was exhausted and wanted to sleep but the truth is that it was time for me to slip into my bed and think about what happened today . I played the scenario over and over in my head and there where thousands of different things I could have said and done but  I knew that nothing would have  changed the final outcome and that it was hopeless anyway .It was clear to me that him coming to our home wasn't just a coincidence , he intended to ask her to be his partner during  the gathering from the beginning but Ellie beat him to it and spoke first  . And so , it comes as no surprise  that I spent my night crying until my head hurt like never before .

Oh God , I wonder how the always cheerful me ended up in this pitiful state .

My lack of self confidence is my pride , and I'll protect both . That's what I have  finally decided on and I will not back off now , tomorrow I'll buy the best dress my money can buy and I'll go to that stupid party with the first guy who asks me  to . I will even  hire one if I had to . 

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