the tragic love story of a poet

how he left me

I know reliving all these memories only does me more harm then help but when you love someone you can't forget about them, they embed themselves so deep in your heart its like a tattoo to the skin a mark that wont come off
and when i think about it i cant help but feel an ache in my heart it hurts too much to he able to explain sometimes there isint enough letters in the alphabet its even to far for my comprehension but one thing i do know is i still love him even if he doesn't. When i see him pass me in the halls my heart drops its like he rips my heart right out my chest and tosses it in the trash all over again i dont know how to act, i dont know how to feel am tired exhausted i keep lying to myself telling myself am over him when in reality am not my clarity is clouded with his touch i miss it so much id give anything to feel his hands on me again the way he would grab me it still gives me butterflies when i think about it . But it also makes me want to scream to shout to cry to rip myself apart but there would he no point at the end all i can do is endure this pain i feel this hole this gap in my chest it kills me am tired of the rain why cant it stop why dosint the rain stop why do i have to feel so empty, it hurts alot i miss my skaterboy i miss him so much he was everything to me he was all i ever really wanted what i want what i hold on to because its what makes me feel alive even when i die to relive a lie
this wound wont heal my hearts to hurt broken and brused
but him holding me that would make it go away, he cant fix me and i know that but he would make life so much better. This fucking knot in my throat it wont go away am sick of this feeling i love you eric so much you cant understand it why cant you comprehend it why why why why WHY ...