Stupid
Have you sat on a table with your colleagues but you cannot move your head to the other side because of one person? It's very awkward!
Why do I feel so bad about it? Why just me? why not him too? I didn't do anything wrong! It's very frustrating! How dare him to treat me like this!
This meeting will end so soon, be brave Grace you need to settle this issue or whatever his resentment to you. Ughhh!
"Congratulations everyone we manage to cease the epidemic, and the good news is that we will be home very soon." As they clap their hand. "Baochi lianghao de gongzuo, jiayou!"
(Keep up the good work, fighting!)
All cheered each other, finally we can go back home.
As everyone was going out, I lazyly picked up my note tab and bag as I looked at him, I want to talk to him. He ran his hand on his head and stayed there, it looked like he was in big trouble, an elbow on the table.
Is this because of me?
God!
I hear the door closed as I saw Ana lock the door and cross her arms leaning the door as she smirks watching us. I rolled my eyes at her because I know she does it on porpuse.
How did she know I want to talk to him?
She's really good at reading me huh.
I compose myself, I walk and sit beside his and put my two hands on the table. I remember how we meet and become friends. Those days... I sighed.
"I don't know how to start Jared, really, but after that day you never talk to me, I feel so bad. I keep asking myself what did I do wrong? Then I realized my fault, we're good friends right? The friendship we had I truly appreciate it. When I am sad you were there to cheer me up and help to cheer up my day, that's the character I really like about you... I didn't tell you my private life because it doesn't matter." I stop and breathe, "I hope this doesn't stop our friendship Jared."
I have no strength to look at him, I might cry.
"I want to stay friends with you but if you find it so hard, I will give you time until you forgive me."
"I don't want to lose you as my friend Jared but I cannot do more, I like you as my friend. I have been married for almost five years."
His eyes widened with my confession.
"I don't have so many friends but I hope you will consider this friendship we have?"
I wish him to understand me. He is a good man I can tell but I don't really feel anything intimate for him. He is like a brother to me, unlike him, his touch can make me feel the tingling sensation and he can make my heart beat faster every time, His kisses make me crave even more and those butterflies on my stomach, only William can do.
"It's me who feels this shits Grace, it's not you. I'm sorry but every time I see you, it breaks my heart into pieces that I couldn't bear to imagine that you owned by someone else. It should be me, why not me? I waited for you to fall for me. I am fucking in love with you! Can't you feel it." His voice is shaking, he combed his hair with his finger the blood shot on his eyes stare at me as I stare at him back.
He is in love with me? Oh my god！
"Is it real or you toyed me? " He accused me.
What?
Harshly pulled my shoulder to face him. He doesn't look like Jared I know, his dark eyes is evident he doesn't rest well. Am I the cause of that?
I'm scared of him, the way he looks at me.
