Gay marriage was legalized today.
I was in the drive thru when I saw it, the tweet Aleksandr sent out that made all of the shippers and fangirls kill my Twitter notifications with 'oh my God's' and 'NovaHD is coming to life'.
I honestly don't know what he ment by that small tweet, but it sure ment something. I'll just have to find out.
I know he's bisexual, but that doesn't mean he will end up with me. He could go for another girl, or even a guy. This doesn't mean he'll love me.
God this is so hard. I love him....but then again I hate him for making me love him.
I have to push my feelings aside in order to keep the 'best friend' act up. It's just a matter of time until my walls crumble and I confess.
It's going to be ten times as hard with him living with me. Seeing him every single fucking day. Knowing that he is right next door to my room.
I pulled into the driveway of the house. My head dropped to the steering wheel, a heavy sigh leaving my lips.
Just relax.....
I stepped out of the car and locked it, making sure that when I clicked the 'lock' button on my keys the small beep sounded.
The front door was unlocked which ment either Aleks is home or I was just stupid enough to leave it unlocked. When I entered I was greeted by an ecstatic Ein, and the soft sound of Green Day coming from upstairs.
Aleks was definitely home.
I set my keys on the kitchen counter and trudged upstairs, only to be stopped by a familiar voice.
"Hey James?" I turned to see Aleks at the end of the hall his hair wet and a towel around his waist. Jesus.
"Yeah?"
"Are you okay? You've been kinda off lately." His face showed utter concern and with all honesty I wanted nothing but to spill right then and there.....but I couldn't.
"I'm fine. I've just been up late editing, and I haven't been getting much sleep." He nodded before walking to his room.
I don't think I can keep this up any longer.
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Okay, so I will be making very slow updates on this so don't expect one every day. Don't hate me please
~ Hooka
