Hook-Up

I love you, goodbye

Kabet.

Kerida.

Mistress.

Malandi.

Slut.

Whore.

Hoe.

I keep on hearing those words. Everyday. Paulit-ulit. It was just a game but he did everything to make me fall hard for him.

I knew the hook up thing since I moved here in new york. Uso talaga yon dito sa states since Americans hate commitments. They hate responsibility. They hate being tied to somebody. They just like to play around. I'm fine with it, actually, I don't do the girlfriend-boyfriend thing as well. Ayoko na. I'm so sick of it. I'm so exhausted of hearing those promises of forever and false hopes. I'm tired of giving my heart away. Kota na ko sa pain.

But then, I met this guy named DJ. We were friends. Good friends. I didn't notice him at first because he's just so quiet and reserved. But one day, we had a talk about life and we found out that we both have the same perspectives. Same maturity level. We have a lot of things in common and that's the time we became close. We can talk about everything under the sun, life, love, family, and his girlfriend.

We were good friends...until that day happened.

He hosted a house party at his place that night and then I got drunk. He took care of me. Tied my hair, washed my face, he even brushed my teeth and put me to sleep. I was so drunk that night but I still know what's happening, I'm aware but i feel so weak to control it.

"Kath, matulog ka na" he whispered. "Hug me" I begged.

...and he did.

He hugged me so tight, he made me feel protected, I fell asleep on his arms and woke up with his lips on mine.

To my surprise, I didn't stop him. I even found myself smiling and kissing him back.

"I'm sorry, hindi ko napigilan" he say. I giggled, "it's okay. I know you guys. I know your games". He pull me closer to his chest, "ligawan kaya kita?". I was surprised so I tilt my head back and looked at him, "gago may girlfriend ka and you know i don't like relationships diba. Bullshit lang yan".

"So ano tayo?" He asked.

"Friends" I kissed his ears, "with benefits. No hassle. No commitments. No strings attached. Let's have a deal, ang unang mainlove, talo" and we pinky promised.

After that day, i went to school acting like nothing happened that night except that i got drunk and i'm having a bad hang over.

*beep*

My phone rang.

"Hello? Who's this?" I asked kasi number lang yung nag appear.

"Kath"

"DJ?"

"How did you know?"

"Boses mo. Duh?! Where did you get my number?", yes, we were close but i don't know his number, ni hindi ko nga naisip kunin e.

"Ahh i asked Patrick. So, are you home yet? You might wanna have dinner here, ang dami pang food from last night" He asked. "Kayong dalawa ni Miles" my friend/roommate. Oh god i know what he wants.

"I'm home na. I went home early sobrang sakit ng ulo ko and sobrang antok. Sorry next time na lang"

So yeah, we talked on the phone lang and talked how cool the hook up thing is. Like, you get what you want without having a commitment.