So Many Tears: Part Two

Chapter 3

Lesane POV:

Sometimes the mind can be a cold place. A cold place of hurt, pain, and straight up misery. Ashia was my misery; I just could not understand for the life of me of how a women could do me of all people so dirty, when all I did was love and protect her. Why couldn't I just get her off my mind? I thought to myself. Why couldn't this empty hole of loneliness just go away. I had everything a man could ever dream of.

Faithful woman, a prosperous career ahead of me, a nice house, cars. You name it, I had it. But love, love is what I truly wanted. Not just any kind of love but my true love. Don't get me wrong now, I loved Terra with every fiber of my being but I just could not say I was "in love" with her. Most people don't even know the meaning of loving someone and being in love with them.

Love? Love is caring for someone and being there for them whenever they need you no matter the circumstance, but being "In Love"? Was something so much powerful. Something so strong that it could take years just to recover from the impact that person had on your life. Being in love is so much more passionate, so rare, so precious. Something so dangerous in my perception.

See, thats what I felt with Ashia. The fact that I couldn't wake up every morning to see that naked almond skin made me furious inside of how much my heart craved for her. For her touch, her lips, her body, her pussy.

"Mr. Shakur", I heard a woman say.

That snapped me out of my daze real quick. I looked up to see a short woman with the most beautiful eyes a man could imagine, Kiara. Haven't seen her in so long that I almost couldn't recognize her.

"Kiara? Wow", thats all I could say. She looked absolutely gorgeous. Not saying she didn't before but right now she looked irresistible. She had on a tight mini dress that showed off every inch of those wonderful curves she always had. Not only did she look good but she looked professional at the same damn time, I had never seen her like this so it surprised me beyond explanation.

"How have you been?", She said as tears began to run down her cheek. I turned away because she already knew I hated to see women cry period.

"Please stop Kiara", I walked up to her and gave her a big long hug. I missed her and I know she was crying cause she missed me too.

"Ha, I'm sorry. Its just been so long", she said as she began to wipe the tears away, "I mean look at you, you look wonderful Mr. CEO"

We both began to laugh and cry. This brung back so many memories. She honestly held me down back in the day, without her I don't even know if I would be the man I am today. She was the definition of a loyal woman, sometimes I just couldn't understand why I just didn't settle down with her.

"Yeah yeah yeah, stop crying you big cry baby", I said as I lead her to the couch that was in my office. I wanted to catch up with her and really get into what happened for us to just stop communicating over these past few years.

"I see you doing big things now huh?"

"Just living life, and taking things day by day", I said as I looked into her eyes.

"I'm sorry, now before you say anything. Just let me talk", I nodded my head okay and motioned for her to speak on. She hesitated before speaking, "I'm sorry for not being there for you like I should've but when a woman is fed up, there's no more loyalty involved".

She spoke as she began to weep even harder than before. I didn't blame her though, I deserved it. I deserved everything that came to me; not only did I leave my ride or die but I left her hanging for a woman who didn't give a damn about me. I left my best friend, and thats something you just don't do, loyalty comes over eveything. Point blank period.