30th April 2023
Three weeks after I tried to commit suicide for the second time.
It's been a year now. A year of trying to heal myself.
I don't know how I can thank you, Isaac. If it wasn't for you I would probably not be here anymore.
If it wasn't for you I would have never met Stephe, pootz, Yuri, Seagull and every one else I consider my family now.
If it wasn't for you I would have never found the person I really am.
Thank you Isaac.
You are my Hero, my savior.
For me you will always be my favorite. You will always have a special place in my heart.
Bloo you give the best advice and you where the first winkie I said hello too.
Thanks for introducing me to this wonderful community.
Kyle you are honestly just so kind. You made me smile even when I had a bad day and in my opinion you make the best content.
Thanks for making me smile when I wasn't in the mood too.
Dan you male my days better. When you stream I forget everything bad that happened in the past weeks. You are the light of my days. Thank you.
And Wadism you just make me feel like I'm a normal person. You make me laugh and I love you for it.
And too the people I met the past year:
Thanks for being there for me when I needed you.
Thanks for making me feel like I'm enough.
Thanks for showing me that I'm allowed to be the person I am.
A really big thanks to Stephe and Pootz who treated me better that my own family ever did.
A big thanks to Seagull who made me confident enough to talk in the chats, join the Discord and writing the fanfics.
A big thanks to Yuri who made me feel loved in a way no one ever did before.
And Claire, my love, my everything. You make me the happiest I ever been in my life and I never loved anyone the way I love you.
I truly love you all so goddamn much.
I would have never got better and being able to help other people if it wasn't for you.
You are all truly amazing.
I love you all so fucking much.
Thank you all for keeping me alive and helping me leave my darkest times behind.
I still have a lot of healing to do. And I will never be fully happy againxmy past will not allow that but I can be as happy as I can get.
If anyone has questions about why I did it and what happened in my past I'm open to answer.
I won't to onto a lot of details except I trust you a lot.
30th April 2024
