Anger

Chapter 11

Mr Anderson POV

OH MY GODDD. What should i do now? i don't think Trice accepted Heath's death. I need to make an excuse for tomorrow. Trice can't come. Because i am not ready to tell Hope the truth. I don't think Rose is ready too. And most of all Hope is not ready to hear another bad news right now. I regret lying to Trice i could have come up with another excuse.

"Seriously you lied?" Rose said from behind like she has been listing all my thoughts.

I gave her a confused face. Then she said
"I heard your conversation on the phone."

Then feeling anxious "Yeah i know i shouldn't have done that. But that was what came to my mind sorry." I said not knowing what to do. And completely freaking out.

Rose silently came infront of me hold my face and said. "hey don't freak out. We need to find a solution this won't help ok?" And Then she hugged me tightly. I know she is right i need to calm down. When i hug her back i can feel her sobbing on my back. I felt so bad i was the one who needed to comfort her but she did the opposite. When we let go she tried to smile but the sadness in her eyes makes it impossible.

"So what do we do?" She said trying to smile again.

"I don't know honey. But i know that we should pray hard. And let God control everything. Because we are to weak for this. We can't do it. So let us surrender ourselves to God. And let him do his job.

Hope's POV

I stormed off the cafeteria. Not knowing why i am mad. So i went directly to the place where me and my best friends used to hang out. Don't expect somewhere nice it is the toilet. Everyone bullied us when Heath and Daniel was not around. So preferred to stay out of sight.

I started to see myself through the mirror. The girl in the mirror is really me. That girl watched her twin dying in her own eyes and didn't do anything. That girl is the reason why her twin died. Hope always remember this. When you watch the mirror remember that you are a murder. You killed your own twin know that.

Then i get out of the toilet and went to the park near by. I sat there for a long time not knowing what i was really doing. Then i heard a voice saying. " i know what you are feeling." When i turn around i saw Holder.

He came towards me and sat down next to me. "I know you feel like you don't deserve happiness. I know you believe that you are the reason your twin died"

"I don't believe Holder. I know that. It's fact." I said that. And regret it right away because i just opened up my feeling. I promised i wouldn't do that.

But Holder doesn't seem he is amazed by it
He said. " well let me tell you something. When i feel confused or stressed out i had this thing that i do. I open my bible app and read the verse for today. It is really useful."

When i was about to say i don't believe in God he stopped me and said. "I know u don't believe in God since Heath died. But i told you what i would do. It is your choice if you really wanna do it." He said and got up from his sit and leave

I don't really know how life goes on from know on. I am pretty confused. If i read the verse it doesn't mean that i believe in God again right.

Then the other me said NO. Hope you are being WEAK. We agreed not to reach God again remember. And remember you don't want to leave a grate life. You don't deserve it.

Yeah that's right. What was i thinking? I don't need the bible. I almost got in that trap again. Then i got text from my dad and i pulled out to read it.

"Shake of your dust; rise up, sit enthroned, O,Jerusalem. Free yourself from the chains on your neck. O captive Daughter of zion. For this is what the lord says: you were sold for nothing and without money you will be redeemed."

What is this? Why would he send me this? When i was about to ask what this is. I saw the three little dots appear again and i waited for him to say something before i ask him.

Then he finally said "it is todays verse."

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