"Because you're an older brother" are words that Shen Duzhe despised most. "You're an older brother, be more mature" are words Shen Duzhe heard often. "As an older brother, you have to be responsible for your younger siblings" it was not like Shen Duzhe asked his parents for siblings and wanted to be responsible. "You're siblings, you have to be nice" just because he shared the same blood as them does not mean he should automatically like them.
When Shen Duzhe first learned he was going to have a brother, he did not react much, after all, it was just him and his parents for much of his life up till his younger brother was conceived. And as a child of rich parents who worked so they could live comfortably and lavishly, Shen Duzhe lived without wants. He was more interested in the room his brother will be living in for the next two decades, as Shen Duzhe's child brain thought it was a pleasant room to look at and the chair in there was very comfortable to sit in.
When Shen Jiu was born, Shen Duzhe was with his grandparents and when they drove to the hospital for him to meet his brother, he did think his brother was cute. As with most families, since Shen Jiu was a newborn he had most of their parents but Shen Duzhe was fine with it since as a rich family they had hired a nanny for Shen Duzhe and he was distracted enough to not feel resentful about it. And it was fun watching Shen Jiu as he wiggled around. It was when they were a lot older, when Shen Jiu started walking and talking that Shen Duzhe started resenting having a brother.
It was not because of Shen Jiu's action though, it was the action of the people around them that made him feel a bit resentful. The constant words about having to be more mature, having to be more responsible, that if Shen Jiu was hurt or upset, Shen Duzhe was scolded for not keeping an eye on him. As such, the duty of being an older sibling. Such feelings of pressure and expectation of being the older sibling felt suffocating, that being responsible for another person's well being felt unfair, especially when it resulted in their parents being upset with him. The day Shen Duzhe fully got what it meant to be an older sibling was when he encountered a terrified Shen Jiu after he woke up from a nightmare, a nightmare about his past life.
It was late at night and Shen Duzhe forgot to grab himself a bottle of water for his bedside. As he shuffled to the closest kitchen, out of sheer luck since he was lazily scanning the same old hallway, he spotted a lump huddle at the end of a window drape.
"Jiu Jiu?" Shen Duzhe called out as the lump was pretty small and no adult would hide in a curtain drape. All Shen Duzhe heard was a whimper in response. "Jiu Jiu, Fuqin and Muqin would be fine if you crawled into their bed," Despite being resentful about the expectation of being a big brother, beside that topic, their parents do occasionally spend one-on-one or two-on-one with him. And Shen Jiu is still young enough that they don't have to give him tough love yet. Shen Duzhe stood in front of the lump for a long awkward moment as this was technically the first time in a long while he was alone with his brother. "Jiu Jiu... did you have a nightmare?" Shen Duzhe can't guess any other reason and he was right to guess as the lump flinched. "Again, Fuqin and Muqin will comfort you if you go to them,"
"Go away," Shen Jiu finally responded, his voice muffled.
"..." Shen Duzhe, as smart as he was, was still a child, and as much as Shen Jiu was an adult reincarnated as a child, is a child with child level limitation now. So Shen Duzhe did what a child would do with a sibling, who in his mind was being unreasonable, and became aggressive. Shen Duzhe tried to drag Shen Jiu out of the drapes but Shen Jiu clanged onto it like his life depended on it till they both started crying in frustration. "Jiu Jiu! let goooooo!" Shen Duzhe sobbed.
"No." Shen Jiu replied. As Shen Duzhe tugged on Shen Jiu, Shen Jiu started screaming his frustration out. "Why did I have to reincarnate with my memories! That stupid beast face keeps appearing when I sleep!"
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I'm the Older Brother of the Villain, Those Who Dare Touch Him Will Pay
FanfictionShen Duzhe had no thoughts of being an older brother before, he didn't even know the concept till his younger brother was born. Despite their rocky beginnings, Shen Duzhe loves his brother and younger siblings very much. [Male!Shen!Reader insert] [T...