Code: LOVE | Jinkook/Kookjin

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Jin's POV

After hyungie picked me up, we went to his house. He comforted me after crying so much until I fell asleep. I woke up and went to the balcony of his room. It's already night and I can see the Seoul city lights and busy roads from up here. The view is very beautiful and it help eased the pain in my heart.

I wonder what Jungkook is doing right now. Is he still with her? This hurt I am feeling right now made me realize that I love Jungkook so much. I turned off my phone because I don't want to see the pictures online. Maybe, another reason is I am afraid of what he will say to me. I know I need to confront him about this but I am really afraid. What if he tells me that he doesn't like me anymore, he wants to leave me to be with her. Many thoughts are going around in my head. My parents already gave up on me, I don't know what I would do if he also want to give up on me.

I don't want to think too negatively but I can't help it. My insecurity is eating me up again. It's really hard. I felt a tear rolled down my face.

A knock interrupted my thoughts.

"Jinnie? Are you awake? May I come in?" I heard Taehyung hyung said outside. I immediately wiped my tear and answered.

"Yes hyungie."

He came in then went to the balcony. He went to me while showing his boxy smile.

"Jinnie, how are you feeling? Did you cry again?" He asked me with worried eyes.

"I'm fine hyung. Don't worry. Sorry for crashing in your room."

"Don't say sorry. You're always welcome here anytime, you know that. I am always here for you." he hugged me tight.

"I know and I am so thankful for that. Love you hyungie."

"Love you too Jinnie." he let go of our hug and looked into my eyes.

"Jinnie, I need to tell you something." he's fidgeting a little.

"What is it hyungie?"

"Promise me you won't get mad at me."

"You know I never get mad at you so please tell me." I am little worried about what he's going to say.

"Uhm, Jungkook is outside. He's in the living room."

"What?! Why is he here hyung?" I suddenly feel nervous.

"Listen Jinnie, don't panic. I think both of you need to talk to each other. Hear his explanation." he hold both of my hands into his. "Trust your hyungie, hmm? I just want you to be happy. And If you're not ready, It's alright too. I'll just tell him to come back when you're ready to face him. Whatever you want, I'll support you."

"Fine. Let him in hyungie." I know sooner or later I need to face him.

"Okay. I'll send him here. I'll just be outside if you need me. Just call me and I'll be here right away." he held my hand tighter then let it go.

After a minute, someone knocked in the door. I feel really nervous and scared.

"Come in." my voice cracked a little. Jungkook came in and he looked like he cried but still so handsome. I am still sitting at the balcony because I feel like I'll suffocate inside the room.

"Jinnie, baby." he went to me and sat on the seat beside mine. I did not look at him and continued to stare at the moon.

"Jinnie-ah, p-please look at me." his voice cracked a little. I am so emotional right now and can't help but cry. I hate myself for being a crybaby. I don't like confrontations.

He suddenly stood up and knelt in front of me and lifted my face. He held my face with both hands and wipe my tears.

"Baby, I am so sorry. Please don't cry. My heart hurts seeing you cry. I am so sorry for hurting you, I did not meant to hurt you." he said with tears in his eyes. My heart also hurt seeing him like that.