Dead Within but Still Alive

Chapter 7

(A/N: Make sure to listen to the lyrics of the song closely. It describes what happens after her ddream almost perfectly. OHHHHH!!!! and for those of you who can't listen to the song or see it, the song in Supermassive Black Hole by Muse. Let's just say the " I thought I was a fool for no one, but I'm a fool for you...." part describes her feeling's for him perfectly. Wait..... Feelings?! What feelings?! I didn't say anything about feelings....... *looks away smirking evilly*)

I wore the dress Trender made me, for the rest of the day. It was actually quite funny to see reactions as I walked through the house. For example, I sat next to Ben and he kept dying in the game he was playing. It was also funny to see Masky and Hoodie's reactions when I walked into the kitchen to get something to drink. When they saw me, their jaws dropped and the cheesecake in each of their mouths fell out. It was hilarious.

I made my way to the backyard which was actually woods but I didn't mind as I walked through the dense foliage. I continued to walk until I came across a small pond which had multiple small stones around it. I sat down on one of the stones and looked at my reflection in the water. I looked tired. Those nightmares have really taken their toll. Suddenly I heard rustling in the bushes behind me. I spun around to see Jeff walking towards me. I sighed and turn back to face the water.

"You good? You seem a little down" he asked.

"yeah I'm fine. Just tired "I answered.

"Well let's go back to the house and get you something to eat. It's pretty late, you should get to bed." Jeff told me, seeming concerned. So I wasn't the only one who could see that I looked tired.

I went to go and stand up but suddenly became dizzy and almost fell. Jeff caught me in his arms.Looking up at him he smiled and I asked," why have you been so kind to me? It's not like I've done anything to deserve your kindness. So why?"

Jeff waited to answer. "There's something about you that is different from others that I've met. Other girls, I mean. I just can't put my finger on what it is. It's like as we talk the bond between us grows faster than anybody else's that I've ever talked too. I don't know if that goes for you too but that's how I feel."

That confused me I shook my head and walked to the mansion which was to be called my new home. What was I thinking? Why did I decided to come along with him. Oh wait, yeah, its because I wasn't thinking. Well, after all this kind hospitality its not like I can just run away. I guess I'm stuck here. But in truth I do get what he means by our "special" bond. I think that's another reason I came with him. Something deep inside drew me to him.

I shook my head of the thoughts and walked in the front door. Everybody was still where they were when I had been wondering around. I yawned and made my way up stairs. I walked into the bedroom that I shared with Jeff and went to the closet. Opening it up I took out a random shirt that was way larger than my actual body. I was actually to tired to care. Getting undress and slipping on the black tee-shirt. I climbed into the bed closest to me and curled up not bothering to get under the blanket. It's like as soon as Jeff mentioned sleep I grew super tired.

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It's hot. too hot. why can't I move? I 'm tied up. Something's holding me. Why can't I scream either?

Opening my eyes I see fire engulfing me. Chains are tied around my body so I couldn't move. I was being burned alive. Just as I tried to scream, breathing my last...

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My eyes burst open like that flames that once engulfed my body. I was back in the dark room I fell asleep in. Trying to move I realized that Jeff was laying next to me, arms wrapped around my torso and lower arms holding my body close to his. His hot breath brushed steadily against my neck. Looking at my surroundings I realized three major things. One, I was in Jeff's bed and not my own which is one the other side of the room. Two, the shirt that I put on earlier was actually Jeff's tee shirt, and I wasn't wearing anything else either. Three, Jeff wasn't wearing a shirt, or pants. Well actually I couldn't see for sure if he really wasn't wearing some but the loosely wrapped blanket around him waist was resting low in his hips. Any lower and I would see something. A something that Women don't have, and only men. His tight pale skin was smooth against the skin against my back. Due to the struggle my shirt had worked it's way up and my black laced underwear was showing. His cold hands wrapped tighter around my waist.

I blushed heavily at the situation. Sweating from the heat I was feeling from Jeff's breath against my neck, I was extremely uncomfortable.

"J...Jeff.....please let me g...go." I tried to wake him.

Groaning he pulled me even closer than before. Nuzzling his mouth against my throat, he quietly spoke breathing seductively against my neck, " No. Your the one who climbed into my bed. I should have warned you about my habits when I'm half asleep."

I turned my head and saw him with a wide smile on his face. It put a funny feeling in my stomach.

"Okay. I'm sorry. I promise I won't make the same mistake again." I pleaded.

There was a moment of silence then he yawned. "Too late."

In a flash, my shirt had not only inched further up threatening to reveal my chest, but Jeff also had managed to jump on top of me, pinning me to the bed.

"J...Jeff, please....s...stop!" I shouted.

He bent forward breathing on my neck again making my blush heavily and I beginto sweat from the excessive heat coming from both our bodies.

" I won't." He whispered and I felt his leg find it's way in between mine and he slowly inched it up towards me.

He looked at me and our lips were inches apart when Jeff bent closer and kissed me full on. I struggled against his grip. I squeezed my eyes shut and I felt Jeff press his body up against mine. He grew heavier and heavier his lips still pressed firmly on my own.

I opened my eyes finally and they grew extremely wide. Jeff had actually fallen asleep in this position. No wonder his body grew really heavy. I managed to free my arms from his grasp and I pushed his face off of mine. I breathed a big huff and tried to push his body off of mine. Finally rolling him off I looked him up and down. I sighed. He was definitely asleep and he was wearing pants, well shorts actually. They were threatening to fall off so I pulled the blanket and lazily covered him. I walked over and collapsed on my bed.

Trying to sleep again I found it hopeless as the though of how much I actually enjoyed what happened, went through my head.

'What am I thinking!!!???' I shouted in my head. I shot up in my bed. I'm not gonna be able to sleep.

I slipped on a pair of Pj shorts, not bothering to get dressed in day clothes, and made my way down into the dark living room.