After you

A dream

"Hey, I'm sorry about earlier"
I was sitting down and reading my book leaning onto the wall at the coffee shop, when Nate came to me.
"May I sit?"
"Yea, Ofcourse help yoursef" I hold my coffee gripped tightly between my fingers and I stare outside the window admiring the sunset.
He tucks my strands of hair behind my ears and grips my jaw into his hand. "Your really pretty Aura" he looks up and down at my lips as I do his my face turns bright pink and I stand up again.
His gasp quickly lost as I pull away eagerly ready to leave. I grab my stuff once again ready to head out.
"Wait!" He grabs my wrist and looks me in my eyes. My blonde hair swishes from behind and his eyes radiate onto mine. In a somber melody I stare into his eyes aimlessly in need of comfort and love. "Please don't push me away, not again" his grasp becomes softer pulling me closer toward him. He stares down at me, I don't know what he was looking at. "Follow me" he grabs my hand and rushes towards the door. "I have something you would like to see"

"Close your eyes" he brings me into a room drags me by my arm his grip becomes tighter against my waist, he slowly pulls the ribbon against my eyes. "I-"
"Shhh" he puts his fingers gently against my lips.
He pulls me closer and his hands play with my earrings, he drags me into a room and pulls me onto a bed. "Nat-" he passionately kisses me by my neck again and again "Natha- we shouldn't do this" again he kisses me by my lips his grip becoming tighter each time. He takes of his shirt finally after tearing mine off ages ago. His hands gently rush up my stomache stroking carefully. "Do you want this?" He asks out of breath, his eyes stare into mine his hands still holding onto my waist, my hands wrapped around his neck. "I really do-" he carries me onto the bed smiling and gliding his arms against my chest. "I want this Nate, I want all of it" he smiles and says to me in a soft tone "are you sure you want this"
"Why are you being like this, I've said it a hundred times at least Nathan I want this."
"Aurora what are you dreaming about" he says in a taunting manner stroking my ears.
Fuck. I wake up from my dream panting. I grab my phone. I throw it across from my fucking bed. Lillian was out. Fuck! It was just a fucking dream, A fucking dream. Nathan is a fucking player. Aura get this fucking picket fence dream out of your fucking head. I grab my sweater and slip out my dormitory. I Ofcourse want to seek refuge down by the lake, down by my happy place.

I sit down panting my chest restricted by these feelings I nearly reach the place, just in the grass I scream in a hollow spot. "Fuck." "It was a fucking dream it was a fucking dream, wake up"
I scream to myself as I run up to the lake, teardrops running down my face burning my skin. "Fucking, shi-" I take a bottle of whiskey out of my flask and chug it down" fucking show Daisy she's in for a treat"