The Unexpected

Chapter 4- Christian's pov

Belfast has been a ride so far and it's only been a week. Scored my first goal in lasts nights game so me and the boys went out for drinks after, all I have to say is it didn't end well, I feel absolutely horrible that i have done this to Lorna i don't know how I'm going to tell her.

All started with chill drinks then, Sean and Bobby bought everyone shots, we all taking these shots dancing in the dirty onion and i start to feel myself getting drunk but i don't stop myself buying more drink. I don't even know why the bar staff are serving me. This girl comes up to me, "hey you, wanna buy me a drink?". I say "only if you dance with me". I don't even know what I'm saying I can't even think straight. I buy her a drink and we dance away. No-one will notice everyone is pissed. She looks into my eyes and just kisses me, I don't feel myself pull away it's not like I want this I'm just confused what is happening right now. We continue to kiss my hands move down her waist. Then out of nowhere i feel someone punch me, i fall to the ground. "What the fck Christian!, thats my sister and you have a girlfriend",Sean shouts.
I just lye there I don't know what to do, the whole team are telling Sean to calm down and Jackson helps me up. I know I have done wrong but why did Sean need to punch me. I need to get home. Jackson orders us a taxi, I can barely walk straight, my body is filled with guilt. I sit down on the side of the road and put my head in my hands and in that moment I know i fucked up.

The taxi gets here me Jackson and Bobby get in. I put my head on the side window and look out, I don't know how I'm going to face Lorna. Jackson says, "Bro come back to mine to get cleaned up". I just nod I can't even think never mind speak. We arrive at Jackson's apartment I'm praying Emma is asleep, I don't want her to know what happened tonight.
We walk in I fall to the sofa I just begin to cry i'm so disgusted with myself I can't even look at myself. Im a drunk mess I don't deserve Lorna. Emma walks out of the bedroom looks at Jackson and says, " Em is everything okay here Jackson", "Yea babe can you please go back to bed i'll be in soon". Emma looks worried but she trusts Jackson so she smiles at him and shuts the door of the bedroom.

I turn around as Jackson is sitting next to me i can tell he's the type of man that all men should look up to, he would never treat Emma this way. He gives me a wipe and i wipe my face as he hands me ice in my other hand. I ice my face and say to Jackson,
"Bro what am I supposed to do like how am i supposed to tell Lorna this".
"I honestly dont know but be honest she deserves that".
"Yeah you're right, can't believe Sean punched me", i say with a smirk.
"Well you did kiss his sister and he used to date lorna so he's being protective".
I turn around and face Jackson and say, "WHAT, they dated, when, what , how long for".
Jackson begins to think and says, "they dated when Sean was playing for the British team, for like 4 years they met in college".
"What they fck,why am I only finding out about this now,  Lorna never said a thing to me".
"Looks like you and Lorna need to have a serious conversation".
I just sit there I look at my phone it's 2:45am , "Shit I need to go, thanks bro".
I get up and leave the apartment and head back to mine.

All I can think about is Lorna and Sean like why wouldn't she tell me, like she has n0t said a word and i kissed his sister what the fck is wrong with me. Ughh i need to get up for practice in 4 hours and I just know the vibes are gonna be off with after what happened tonight. I reach the apartment unlock the door take my shoes off and close the door behind me. I walk to the bedroom and open the door it begins to creak, Lorna wakes up I smile at her. I take my shirt off and just get straight into bed. I don't even look at her, I can't. She will know.