2012 thought
I don't know why I keep thinking about taraji. I mean my life is good now compared to years ago. Plus I'm finally getting better at letting things go...
"Maybe I should look- no it's just best not too" I thought. I wanna get over here but I will always have love for taraji.
Past
It's the first day of senior year and Im really excited cuz I get to see my baby for the first t in three months. The way I've been feeling throughout them 3 months has been crazy.
"BABY" I squealed as I see her sitting on the bench. I sat in her lap, "Hi honey" she said hugging my waist. "I missed you so much" I said while squeezing her tight, she laugh " I missed you too but u hurting me a little baby."
"What class you got" I asked while looking at her schedule. "Oh we got some of the same classes. 1st, 2nd, 4th, and 6th period is different classes" "That's fine at least I get to see my pretty baby more than last year." She said kissing my cheek. I blushed, "Stop it babe."
"What you gone wear for prom" she asked. I chuckled "Girl school just started." "I know I was just wondering." The bell rang loud.
"Alright baby see you ina lil bit." She kissed me and I kissed back. "Okay bye baby." "Bye."
Present
"Baby... Tasia, what you thinking about?" Kendall asked. ".. just about life" " I mean I got the family I always wanted since i was a little girl. It just feels like something else is missing." I got the fame, the love , the family, the Lord on my side, all of the above.. but it just feels like I'm missing something...
"We can always try for another baby" he said while kissing my neck, "Honey stop, you know we can't be having another baby." While I'm trying to still drop some weight from having Keziah, I DEFINITELY don't need to be having another child.
Later that day
I'm in the club with my friends celebrating my success. "Girrlll, that man fine as hell right there" Mary said. "Who?" I looked around. "Oh shit, he coming over." Now I see him. " Wassup pretty ladies," "hello" I waved with a tight lip smile. "Heyy sexy," Mary said. She bite her lip looking him up and down. " Me and my homeboy over there wanted to if we all can hang out sometime." He winked then smile at us.
"Hell yea we can hang out." Of course Mary is on board. I already know what this typa "hangout" means... "Im flattered but I don't think what I have is what u want." I chuckled. "Watchu mean," he raised an eyebrow. "Look sir, I'm pretty sure you wouldn't want to take a penis to your ass," I said then laughed. "Ohhh I see, my apologies" he said. "No worries"
"Well I'd love to still have that hangout wit you pretty lady," he said looking over to Mary. I turned to my left and see James downing shots back to back. "Woahh bruh chill," I said taking the drink out his hand. "Girl I'm stressing" he said reaching for the drink. "No im not finna take care of your drunk ass. Remember the last time."
"Oh girl please. I wasn't so bad" he rolled his eyes. I raised an eyebrow, "Oh really." "Yea man gimme my drink" he held his hand out. "Here girl."
Guess I was wrong. From thinking it would go.
"Dani I don't know I feel like he's cheating on me." I sigh " What makes you think he's cheating on you." She asked. "He's been sneaking... like he'd spend hours in his office on the phone with someone, laughing and giggling. Another time is when he'd spend hours at someone's house. Probably another girl... while he was it the shower his phone went off, I went to check cuz it was right beside the bed. It was girl named Erica talking about "when you gon come see me again?"... then whenever I wanna have sex, he be on some bullshit.. like I ain't good enough anymore." I said with tears in my eyes.
On and on and on
Dani hugged me, "No don't cry tasia. I promise it's gone be okay, even if he is cheating you'll find someone better." "That's the thing though, I thought he was the one after all these years, but I was wrong... again." I wiped my face.
Here it goes.
"Queen. Queen. Baby." I hear him coming up the stairs. "Quee-" "Why.. just why..." "Huh? Baby whatchu talking about" he said coming closer. " No. Just go back to Erica," I said. His eyes widened " ERICA" "Wait baby I promise it ain't what it looks lik-"
"No no no just go." I sniffed. He got down on his knees, "My love. Please don't do this"....
"I think we should get a divorce." I stand up. "NO BABY." He grabbed my hand "You need to go with all that yelling. You not finna wake up my babies." I pointed to the door "Go." He walked out. In the distance I heard the front door close.
Lord please help me...
Sorry for the wait lol.
