Mingyu had always felt incompetent never enough even tho everyone thought differently sure he fit's in perfectly everywhere it's easy for him to make friends but those were completely different from the feeling of inadequacy he felt almost all his life .
Mingyu never thought of himself as enough because well he wasn't no one ever told him that he was good enough not even his parents no especially not his parents.
These feelings were getting the better of mingyu on his worst days like today.
He has been with jeonghan for a month now well they aren't really in a relationship are they.
Even mingyu is confused but jeonghan doesn't look confused or seem to care about this .
So mingyu has decided that today is the day he need to ask him .
Ask jeonghan what the fuck is he doing with him because of all the things mingyu is he isn't a little bitch when it comes to confrontation.
He isn't blind either he see some things more than the others
and what he saw was how seungcheol blushed and almost had a malfunction just because jeonghan called him cheol and that also over text when mingyu pointed it out he received a pillow right to his face ahh what a pleasant day it was (not) .
but whenever he talks about seungcheol to jeonghan the mention of his name sets jeonghan almost on fire mingyu doesn't know if it anger or hormones he doesn't want to know.
His feelings for jeonghan are complicated he doesn't love jeonghan but he does like him alot he enjoys his company and Jeonghan's friends are really nice so a plus point .
But today he is gonna ruin that like almost everything in his life he's gonna ask jeonghan what he really feels about him and does he want a relationship because as much of a fuckboy mingyu may look like he was a hopeless romantic and had a soft and sensitive heart.
"Heyy hani how are you" is the first thing mingyu asks upon entering jeonghan's dorm room hoshi is not here as usual so thats a good thing.
"Oh min you're here " jeonghan says without lifting his head from his computer.
"What are you working on" he asked sitting down beside jeonghan.
"Oh just stupid assignment about some management idiocity" jeonghan said scrunching his nose but still not looking at Mingyus's direction.
"Um jeonghan i wanted to talk to you about something" mingyu said feeling nervous all of a sudden not Very brave of him now because well he wasn't really scared of rejection but of the loneliness that surrounds him afterwards
now let's not act like he gets rejected alot this is probably gonna be a second or third time weirdly people usually throw themselves at him which he doesn't really like much one of the biggest reason he decided to stay behind the camera as a photographer and not Infront of it as a model in other words he knows he's hot.
"Yeah go on min" jeonghan said now looking at him his complete attention towards him.
"Um i ... I wanted to talk about us" mingyu said getting a little braver now.
"What about us?" Jeonghan asked confused as of he had never thought about this... Oh he never really thought about this mingyu realized.
"Do you like me" mingyu decided to end it a lot quicker than he intended that was suppose to be the last question but who got time for that .
"Yea min ofcourse i like you" jeonghan replied even more confused than before and mingyu despite everything thought he was cute that was the thing about jeonghan he was pretty and handsome and cute and sexy all at the same time he was perfect. Something mingyu could never be.
" Like as in do you want to have a relationship with me?" Mingyu asked now pushing further and saw the exact moment jeonghan's confusion was replaced by shock his knitted brows shot up his narrowed eyes became round.
"I...min i..i don't know i don't know if im really ready" jeonghan Said as he stared at his hands that were placed on his lap he was rubbing his thigh back and forth a habit mingyu had noticed when jeonghan was nervous first he saw this was when hoshi had broken his leg the whole ride to the hospital was jeonghan rubbing his hands over his thighs so much that his hands got really red mingyu had to hold them for him.
Mingyu didn't move much this time letting him continue.
"I don't think i can handle a relationship right now besides im not really relationship material "
Jeonghan said without looking at mingyu .
"It's ok jeonghan I understand" he said itching to add unfortunately but deciding against it .
"You do? .....Thanks" jeonghan's voice was low and soft angelic as mingyu would describe it he finally looked up to meet Mingyus's eyes a sad smile on his lips mingyu wanted to kiss it away what an idiot he was.
"But I'll have you know you are relationship material .....you will be when you find the right one to hold onto" he said getting up and looking at jeonghan who looked at him back with sad eyes mingyu hated himself for making him sad just as he reached the door jeonghan called after him
"Mingyu can we still be friends" his voice was full of hope as if being Mingyus's friend was such a reward but he didn't say that he rarely did so he smiled and nodded.
"Yeah of course"
