hopeless Romantic '

Yearning

Rants that never made it to someone

I just wanna feel like I belong.
You spoke to my dreams again , and like every time you did, i crumbled..i cried to my heart out hoping that this time, i'll be strong enough to bear it but guess what i didn't..it just breaks it more enough to only realised that the bond has been gone..well still the smile stays which holds back so many secrets, and pain with so many unsaid stories with the most cutest and beautiful smile one can ever see, as much as we hide the sorrow and griefs our eyes never lie telling all those deep scars, the harder we try to hold our tears..the more they reflect the pain we're suffering from..and even if i sat to tell all out to just to pour my heart out I can't help but feel the heavy weight of all my emotions, all at once on every word i utter..as if someone is letting me go of their grips on what we once has held on..your actions are pushing me away and just to realise that i didn't matter to you, knowing the fact that I can't change someone by loving them harder,
love can be bittersweet symphony of any contradiction with a covetousness with the smile trapped the person,
the smile which usually says happy moments but all of a sudden that become the reason of our pain and at the specific moment, our hearts seeks nothing but someone's who would look into our eyes and understand all the pain we kept held within us which we failed to convey through our lips, which were too tired to tell because of wearing a smile that held back everything..we all deserve to be this vulnerable right or to cry out hearts out all the night thinking about it ..we all deserve someone in front of whom we can just be ourselves.. someone who holds us when we cry..and says that yeah they are their its okay to be broken sometimes and let that vulnerabilities out just like a semipermeable heart that yeah you're in pain to accept it all and own it with the heavy heart and to able to seek help, we tend to smile through pain not because we want to hide it from the world but because we want to hide it from our own ourselves :')

Bgm: bayaan by navjot ahuja ✨
A song which is really close to my heart im afraid that i might share with someone who don't really take this with upmost care but hey.."Music are meant to be shared not to be put under the rug''..all the love💕

I so wished that someone have said me once that its okay you don't have to explain all your pain kyuki
"Sun meri jaan ..sab hai pata aankhein ye teri bayaan krti sach..
sun toh zara kuch na chipa ..muskaan teri bayaan karti sach''
I would cry my heart out in their arms trust me i would..i would break all my walls and rip my heart out..tell all my grief that im grieving alone,tell all the secrets of mine that im hiding from all...
..but ig its just my fantasy 💔

With love
Abby🖤