In his world (Earthmix)

chapter 12

* warning: this chapter contain self harm and suicide attempt. If you are uncomfortable don't read it.*

Mix pov

I was crying on a bench, when I got calls from earth..  I decided not to pick it up. A text popped on my phone

Earth : jan it's not your fault, it was an accident. Don't cry na..

I couldn't control myself more and started crying loudly.. I can't live like this. Maybe if I die everything will be okay. Jan will get her body.. maybe this is the only way...

I got a call from first

"Mix.. where are you? Are you okay?"

" First I can't take it anymore. Everyone is suffering because of me. Maybe if I die everything will be okay. Promise me you will take care of yourself. You will take care of earth"  I said while sobbing

"Mix what are you talking about. Don't do anything stupid mix.. we will find a way. Mix please" he Said.

I can feel the fear in his voice

"I am sorry first. Please forgive me. Take care of yourself. But I can't really do this"  I said and cut the call

I look at the sky, today is full moon. The surrounding is glowing by the moon light but my heart is covered by darkness.
I went towards the pond slowly slowly.

Tears were continuously falling from my eyes..
"I am sorry mom, dad, earth. Please forgive me. Maybe this is the best way. Maybe janhae will come back if I die. Earth need her more than me" I said

I closed my eyes and jumped in the pond.
I can feel my whole body is going downward. I started having difficulty in breathing. My ears were turning numb.
I could not breathe and anxiety came across me.

However, just as I was "dying," I had a sense of calmness coming over me. The anxiety went away. There was no pain or fear. It was actually very peaceful.

I can feel my heart  stop beating. I was gone but then my brain supposedly sent one last signal to my heart and it pushed the blockage in my heart into my lungs.
Earth I am sorry, please forgive me..

Suddenly I felt a strong pull. Someone jumped on the water...

I suddenly felt the air. Someone pulled me up but was apparently very grey with little blood/oxygen going through my body.

The last thing I saw before loosing my senses was first.

Earth pov

Me and mix's mom were crying when jenhae left from there while crying. I want go after her but I can't leave mix's mom like that. I tried to call her but she didn't pick up.

So i texted her

Earth : jan it's not your fault, it was an accident. Don't cry na..

Seen

I hope she will be okay..

"Earth I think you need to go after her. I am okay now" mix's mom said

I thought for a while and nodded

I was about to go when mix's body started shaking. I quickly went towards him.. his body was shaking strangely. Tears were falling from his closed eyes.. he was shaking so badly that I thought he had an Epilepsy attack.

I quickly called the doctor. He started checking his pulses and heartbeat

"His heartbeat is dropping, his pulses are low" he said

He quickly gave him an injection. After sometime his body calmed down.

"He is okay now.. but it is very concerning. His body is too weak. It seems like he doesn't want to live anymore. He is giving up." The doctor said with concern

"Doctor do something " mix's mom begged him.

" We are doing our best.. let's hope he wakes up soon" he said and left from there

For a moment I thought I lost him.. I look at him and Shake his body.

"Why? Why are you doing this?? Can't you see you are hurting us? If anything happens to you I will kill myself " I said while crying.

Why can't he understand my pain😭😭?

First pov

After getting the call from i quickly left the house.

"Khou did you find out where he is?" I asked khoutang

"Yup. He is inside the park. His location is showing this only" he said

I quickly drove near the park.

"Quick! Let's go" I shouted

We were continuously calling him, when we heard his ringtone. It was near a pond.. I look at him with horror..
Don't tell me

Without wasting another second i jumped into the pond..
I saw his body was downing, he wasn't trying a bit to come up.

I quickly hold his waist and pulled him up..

As soon as we reached up khoutang pulled us out of the pond.

"Mix!mix!" I shouted

"Move" khoutang said

He started giving him CPR

After trying for some time he suddenly started coughing. Some water came out of his mouth..

After sometime he sat down. I quickly hugged him. He started sobbing

"I am sorry" he said

"It's ok.. it's ok.. we will find a way" I said while rubbing his back.

We stayed there for sometime when khoutang spoke

"Guys let's go home now.. you guys need to change your clothes otherwise you will catch cold"

We nodded and sat on the car...
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Ok ok that's it my sunflowers. Hope you like it. Please support. Like and comment.. ( I never experienced downing so I took reviews from reddit)