OCEANS & ENGINES | Sunsun

Part 1 | You're so much older and wiser

Saturday sunset, three hours before his flight, they were laying on their bed, watching the sky turned dark. They intertwined their fingers, cuddling in each other's arms since this morning.

Sunoo sighed softly as he looked at the clock on their nightstand. He wrapped himself more into his embrace, tightening the blanket around their bodies. It's the end of April, it means he needs to let someone he loved the most go.

"But I don't want you to go." He said, sniffling on his boyfriend's neck.

He could feel his tear dropped the moment he closed his eyes. He's here, his boyfriend is still here. But he'll go within an hours.

"Oh Sunoo, we already talked about this, aren't we?" His boyfriend said, pulling Sunoo's chin up with his fingers so he could see his face. He inhaled as he squeezed his arms tightly to keep him close. Close enough until he could feel his lips brushed his own.

Sunoo could only cry his eyes out, he started to sob, shaking his head at him. Three hours from now he'll watch his airplane fly off and leave him and Seoul with only his memories.

Sunoo could never be more dying when the first time his boyfriend told him that he'll continue his study for a Post Graduate Degree in another country.

It was wednesday night, when Sunoo welcomed his boyfriend back home from his enlistment at military. He remembered that he just graduated from his University, finally getting his bachelor degree. His week was full of celebration with friends, family and until it was the time for him to finally celebrate it with his boyfriend.

"Sunghoon hyung!"

Sunoo rushed through the door, running into Sunghoon's embrace in his front porch yard. He pulled him closer as Sunghoon lifted him up, tossing his backpack down to the floor. Sunghoon twirled him around, nuzzling on his shoulder.

"Hyung! I really miss you." Sunoo muttered in his embrace, tilting his head back lightly so he could see his boyfriend's face. "I miss you too, Sunoo!" Sunghoon replied with a big smile on his face.

Sunghoon brushed the tear that fell on Sunoo's cheek with his thumb. He chuckled, putting him down to the ground, arms latched on his waist still.

"My baby is finally getting his degree!" He exclaimed.

Sunoo chuckled, he could see that Sunghoon was getting more buff than he was before. It was two months ago when he got a chance to visit his boyfriend- his bicep isn't the same as the way it looks now. His hair has gotten longer, leaving behind the buzz cut looks that Sunoo adored the most. He still remembered it clearly when Sunghoon asked Sunoo to cut his hair and only to make him look like a fool. His hair was freaking messy that Sunghoon had to cut it again at the barber shop nearby, "Getting you an expert." Sunoo whispered in his ear.

But even in his bad haircut, Sunoo would never stop talking about how good he looks and he'd definitely still dance with him every single night.

Dinner was ready, Sunghoon arrived at 7 pm with a book in his hand. Sunoo looked at it thoroughly, it was his, the book that he lent to him during the first month of his enlistment.

"5 times. I read it 5 times." Sunghoon said, latching onto Sunoo's forehead as he ruffled Sunoo's hair gently.

Sunoo shed his tears one more time and pulled him into a deep kiss.

At 8, both of them enjoyed their dinner together. Sunghoon was just coming out from taking a shower— his hair smelled like peppermint from Sunoo's plant based shampoo.