𝓜𝔂 𝓫𝓮𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓭 𝓯𝓵𝓸𝔀𝓮𝓻... [Yandere Yoriichi x fem reader x Michikatsu]

Where do I even start..

Hello. Long time no see guys. I've decided to take a break due to some issues I'd like to share. However, before I start, I'd like to say that I am NOT abandoning this book. This book will probably be continued around May or June. I don't have exact dates on when there'll be updates during those months. Now then, I'll explain why I haven't been updating.


A little heads up is that I'm probably gonna vent a bit about my situation.

You guys that read my book have been wonderful, and I'd like to greatly thank everyone who has read my book so far. Thank you all for supporting it so far, it shows me that you all like it, despite my poorly updating schedule. None of you has ever pressured me to update, and that is also another thing I like about y'all.

I have 3 big reasons to why I haven't been updating. I'd like to start off with talking about testing. I've gone into testing this month and I've been studying and stuff for my EOC's and my Finals. That has caused me to be busy. Another reason is that during last month and this month, I've been in the process of moving. So, any free time I basically have after studying is dedicated to packing up to move into a bigger/better house.

My last one is my emotional/mental health. During these past 2 (might be going onto 3) months, I've been dealing a lot with me and my partner. And, it's caused me to be confused, unmotivated, and drained. I do love my partner very much, and it's caused me to put their feelings in front of my own. I've been told by many of my friends and his friends that it's very unhealthy for me to keep that up. I recently noticed that my partner has made some new friends and while that's amazing and I'm happy for them, it's caused them to somewhat.. forget about me. Starting around 2 months ago, my partner started to get busier and busier and we rarely had time to hangout, let alone communicate. I do understand that everyone has a life. I understand that very well, and I do not pressure them to talk to me 24/7. However, during my past experiences with dating people is that I've been emotionally abused. It's a really big topic to get into. Because of being emotionally abused in the past, it's caused me to gain overthinking issues, trust issues, etc. So, generally that'd be a tie breaker for someone. I don't see why anyone would want to deal with such an issue.. So, when he got new friends and eventually made a friend that was a girl, I had no issue with it. I wanted him to be able to make friends and enjoy life to the fullest. I had no issues with the girl either. However, I noticed that my boyfriend tends to talk her more than me, which it really did hurt me. One day, I decided to go through his phone and to look through these messages with him and her. I wasn't only disgusted but complexly heartbroken.

I had saw that she sent him flirty/dirty texts to him (He had never told me anything about these btw). This really confused me and I didn't know what action to take. So, I decided to confront him about these messages. He had told me that he was uncomfortable with the way she was talking to him (Yet he never told her that or questioned why she was doing this). I gave him the benefit of the doubt and had told him to tell her to give boundaries, and this girl didn't know that he had a girlfriend. He had told me that stating his boundaries would be useless, and I don't understand how that would be useless at all. Thankfully, she had stopped, but she still made weird remarks to him. I eventually got tired of it and I told him to tell her to stop being friends with him and to block her. She was blocked on SEVERAL occasions. And he had unblocked her several times after she got blocked. We ended up arguing about that. This was last month fyi. This month has been horrible with us nonstop arguing. I noticed that before all of this happened, he'd usually text me first and would always ask to hangout. However, I've been dealing with him being cold towards me. He would never text me first anymore, he stopped talking to me, he never said anything unless I started the conversation first. Even if I did start the conversation first, he'd give me dry and short responses. I decided to talk about it one night and he told me that's how he was and he was sorry he isn't like how he was before. He had stopped saying goodnight/good morning to me, and he basically stopped asking how I was. All of this killed me emotionally, and I tried so hard to communicate this to him several times. However, every time I do, it's always somehow geared towards how he feels and not how I feel. He sometimes even leaves randomly when I try to talk about my feelings, this has lead to us never actually finishing our conversations.

Believe me, I really do still love this man but I'm so unsure on what to do. I feel like I'm being taken as a joke. This is just a short version of what happened. I wanted to let y'all know because I feel like you all deserve it. Especially since you all don't nag me to constantly upload. Again, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for dumping all of this onto y'all. You don't have to read it, but I do highly insist you do.

Thanks for reading. Have a lovely night/morning/afternoon!
Love y'all <3

- Author-chan.

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