Phuwin's Pov
After that incident at the university , i found myself stare at the wall instead of studying , i skipped meals , i didn't have the energy to even brush my teeth . I didn't want to wake up either. It was hard for me to even have a bath , even go to university as usual .
I was crying myself to sleep . The exhaustion from crying for hours made me feel tiered and made me sleep around 4 am . I felt sorry for Pavel , at the same time i was grateful for him too . He made sure that i was having a proper bath , dried my hair , tried to feed my favourite meals , took all photocopies and printouts of the notes that i've been missing due to my depression. I thought i had recovered fully until i saw him again. It's been almost two weeks since i saw Pond for the last time and it triggered me a lot . The rhetorical questions , my insecurites made me feel worse . I was panaroid that he might leak my nudes which i sent him when we were dating . But gladly he didn't . Never have i ever thought i would question my humanity because of my first love. I don't know why but i still keep our pictures in a small box. I still sneak a peak at them, sometimes laughing at myself , thinking how stupid i am.
People around me ask to move on , but i don't think it's that much easy to do as others say.
'' I am not following you'' ... his words kept resonating in my mind for days till Pavel took me to the Aquarium date with him and his buddies . All of them tried their best to make me smile. I felt sorry for them but i felt like to be surrounded by such warm people. Sometimes you need a shoulder to cry on ; specially when you have to pretend that everything was going well to please your rich parents who barely care about me .
( time flies)
I was waiting for Pavel at the bench , waiting for the dessert after shopping in the mall . I saw he was coming with a cute guy , who was smiling at him . He was bit shorter than Pavel.
YO my bestie.. this is fourth Natthawat.. Fourth this is Phuwin
Oh..heyyyyyyyy ..it's really nice to meet you , actually i've heard a lot about you and i'm a second year psychology major , fourth said smiling.
His cutness made me smile . What a cute junior ..i thought to myself .
Um okay i think you two should talk , i gotta run some errands said Pavel leaving this fourth guy with me . And i saw Pavel was winking at me.
No way!! is he setting me a blind date with a junior now ? to the worse in same faculty ?? I wanted to smack the shit out of pavel
so..phi' may i sit next to you ?
I nodded as a response.
Have you eaten ?
of course haha i was waiting for i-
Fourth handed me over my favourite dessert aka the kitkat crepe , out of nowhere .
h- how u know ? no way that Pavel had told you this because Pavel is soo bad at remembering stuff , i said taking the Crepe with my both hands.
See.. you are smiling
um .. yeah fourth haha , thanks
honestly , Phi Pavel didn't say that i - i saw that u were eating them on the cafe which i was working part time during my first year . And every sunday you've used to come and eat this same crepe but suddenly you've stopped coming to the cafe and i- i was waiting till you come and enjoying the crepes i used to make.
Omg fourth..are you for real??
yes phi
oh noo you are so sweet .. thank youu
um Phi ,are you free this Friday ?
Yeah foruth why ?
then shall we meet at the Songlarn festival ? if you don't mind
of course why not
Thanks Phi
I smiled at this cute nong . He was adorable .
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