anonymously yours || marcus lopez

#5

Marcus' pov

FROM PRINCESS
thank you for last night.
took a lot for me to say that.

TO PRINCESS
no thank you ! and i'm proud
of you !

FROM PRINCESS
you mean a lot to
me.
TO PRINCESS
ew 🙄
i'm joking. , you mean
everything to me :)

FROM PRINCESS
i wanna see you

TO PRINCESS
soon princess
absence makes the
heart grow fonder ;)

FROM PRINCESS
fond of me huh ?

TO PRINCESS
feral for you.

How the fuck. could someone i didn't even know
have such a chokehold over me. i hated that i found myself so fucking weak. I needed her. fuck i needed her so much that i felt selfish.

"FUCK " i got out bed needing to get out of my room and get some fresh air. I went upstairs to the roof and chris was there along with lex , billy and ... delilah.

"welll well well if it isn't loverboy" chris chuckled and i roll my eyes at his words.
"did you hear that there's a new student coming in about a week or so " i say placing a cig between my lips , i looked for my lighter FUCK i didn't need this right now .

Delilah cleared her throat. i look at her and she passes me a lighter. "thanks .." she offered a weak smile and i couldn't help my lips curling up returning the gesture. i lit my cigarette before handing it back to her.

"so how's the app going? " she asked and she looked afraid as though i would bite.

" it's okay. nothing special. " i lied. no way in fuck. was i going to let her of all people know how infatuated with someone.
" not what i've been hearing" she raised an eyebrow taking a drag from her spliff "

i let out a bitter laugh " yeah well remind me to tell you everything when you matter to me okay ?" her smile softly drops.

" was trying to make an effort marcus." she passed her spliff to billy before she starts walking off  and a wave of guilt takes over me . what the actual fuck. ???? why. did i feel bad.

i ran over to her " sorry ... the app is going well ."
she offers a simple nod before leaving. what the actual fuck was happening to me ?? i just apologised to the person i hated most. FUCK. FUCK. FUCKING FUCK.

" you okay mate ?" lex placed a hand on my shoulder.    " this.  fucking girl is changing me. i've let my guard down so fucking much" i groan

" that's good ? right ?" he looked confused .
" i don't fucking know man... i'm scared. " i push my hand through my hair .

" maybe you should ask her out ???" he smiles

" you think she'd want to ?" i asked uncertain

" dude based off what you've told me she'd be stupid not to " he chuckled.

" i'll think about it ... " i smile taking a drag from my cigarette.

delilah's pov

" guys ... marcus just apologised to me " i was still shocked to my core. saya and missy gasp at the same time .
" what the actual fuck ???" missy couldn't believe what she was hearing.