SILVERLINING...

MY BROTHER.

Our siblings have a bigger impact in our life right?

Me and my brother are 2.9 years apart. Since childhood I've always been the active one,I was good with my studies, I was Puncuatal, I always had a way with people and everybody loved me except my brother and lemme tell u why?.

There are no of incidents that made us drift apart
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1.

We played cricket in our childhood. It was only two of us, so if he was bowling I'd bat and he'd bat if I was bowling. Everytime we played I wanted to bat first and he'd not allow it cause he knew that once I finish my batting I'd run inside home and complain to my mom that I was not feeling well ("don't call me names cause I was naive back then and just always wanted to win as ik that if he'd get to bat he will for sure score more than me").I don't remember a single day when I let him bat.

U might think this is not an issue but just think abt this fact that we both were kids and he wanted to play as much as I wanted to.
Whenever I went to my mom complaining abt my stomach or headache or slightest scratch, he always came running behind me and told mom that I was just acting cause I didn't want to play anymore as I was done with my play , as I already told I had my way with people , I used cry in front of her to make me look miserable (I was a little cunning 😅) . So then she used to tell my brother that I was really in pain and why would act like I was in pain and make him go to play with other kids in the colony.

"When he wanted to play with me ig i always ignored him. Now when I want to play with him he completely ignores my existence (exaggeration.he does play with us but at times)".

2.

He had two basetball keychains that he treasured, me being me tore one of it telling that he had two, so what difference would it make if he lost one.
( Trust me if he was the same person that he is now, I'm sure he'd break my bones for doing that )
That day he kept crying and i was laughing goofily tho mom served me a nice beating.
He wanted the ball so bad because he wanted to gift it to our newborn cousin and i shattered his desire.
This was not the only incident where i destroyed things he liked.

"Maybe I'm the reason that he treasures almost ntg these days, he probably thinks that he's gonna be hurt in the end so he stopped caring abt things".

There are many more incidents that happened but i wouldn't pose myself a villian, right. So, I opt to not tell those😅.

Growing up I realized

*He was not good with studies as he was always compared to me rather being compared to students of his own class, which killed his confidence.
*He was dull and lazy, in order to get a good name i did works assigned to him also, which killed his individuality.
*He doesn't talk to people cause I've never gave him a chance too. Anytime a relative visited us, I never left a chance to impress em and make them praise me but he always ended up pairing sentences in his mind. Ibkilled his thoughts.
* Everybody called him a quite kid but no he wasn't a quite kid it's just me who never let him be him.

More importantly I've realized that "I was in limelight pushing him into darkplace".

I've written this to let u guys know the impact ur behavior has on ur siblings. Doing something without knowledge is fine but not willing to rectify that mistake isn't.

Next time when u complaint abt ur siblings behavior just think why they behave like that only towards u and no one else.

Our bond is much better now and we have a really good relationship.
If u want to know how we rebuild it, I will write another part of this😌.

Signing off
Silverlining☁️