*this might be a long part but I'm sleep deprived and will be making up as much shit as possible for this*
"GUYS FOOD IS HERE" I shout throughout the house
Blake skids round the corner and nearly falls over. Kai runs and actually falls over and max walks like a normal person out of his room
"LETS GO IM SO HUNGRY" Blake screams
"Blake will you fucking calmnmmmm down man" I say
"ok" Blake says and hanging his head down
*time skip: all of you eat your food*
10:47pm
"Holy shit it's late I'm going go to sleep now"
you say and put your plate in the sink and walk into your room.
MAXs POV:
"night lo- ash"
Shit I nearly just said love instead of ash I'm so cringe Mann
"Goodnight ash" Kai and max both say
"you know what I might go to bed aswell guys see you later" says max
Kai's POV
"Okay night max"
"What was that Blake did he nearly say love to ash damn" I say
Ash's POV
I crawl into bed and max does aswell I hold Max's hand and push his hair out of his face
"I-is it okay if I call you love, ash?"
"of course max"I say with a small smile on my face" it's such a cute name"
I hold onto Max's hand tightly and we watch some Netflix together
"night love" max says" I'm really tired now"
"ok max night" I say as I hug him from behind "love you"
"love you too"
⚠️TW: nightmares about abuse and bodyshaming SH and overall just a toxic ex ⚠️
partner
ASH'S DREAM POV
"You worthless piece of shit your fat ugly and have stupid 'remberance' scars on wrist it's just dumb like you"
"I guess that's true babe"
"Don't even call me babe cause I'm dumping you, you worthless depressed fat shit I hate you "
"okay I'll leave your fucking house and be homeless"
⚠️DREAM AND TW OVER⚠️
Max's POV:
"ash wake up are you okay" he says watching you shake and sweat
Ash's POV:
you wake up cold but sweaty and trembling
"Ash are you okay" max says in a very worried tone
"Yeah it was just a bad dream"I say not wanting to tell max yet"don't worry"
"Are you sure love,you can tell me anything you know" he says
I feel like I'm about to be sick and I get up and run out of Max's room to the toilet max quickly following behind me
⚠️TW SICK AND SH⚠️
I kneel over the toilet and throw up the pizza from earlier and look in my mirror seeing how I really look remembering my ex's words I pick up the sharpest thing near me and pull it against my wrist leaving a deep cut dripping with blood quickly realising what I just did I get in a shower and clean the blood of and start Sobbing loudly I can hear max calling my name at the locked door and it makes me feel so bad that I just can't stop crying I think that max deserves so much better than me I hear max frantically trying to open the door and begging me to open it I get out of the shower put my sick covered shirt and trousers on and ask Max to get me a change of clothes because I'm sick and quickly bandage the cuts on my arm up before I open the door and max walks in
"Ash!!!! Are you okay or not" he says passing me a pair of trousers and a shirt
"not really that pizza did not sit well with me"
"I'll let you get changed but just tell me to come back in when you're done" I hear max slide down the wall next to the door and sit down waiting for me
"max you can come back in I need to talk to you"
"okay ash what's wrong" max says as he sits down next to me
"that nightmare wasn't nothing it was about my ex partner who abused me and said stuff about me called me worthless and fat and said stuff about my scars I remembered it all in that dream"
"Ash why didn't you tell me this"
" I didn't feel ready"
"that's fine love"
I look down at my wrist and the bandages and my shirt have been soaked through with blood and max sees it aswell
"Ash have you been cutting yourself"
"Only once but it went really deep I didn't mean to I couldn't control I just did it and I tried to fix it im sorry max I'm so sorry"
"ash calm down its ok I understand you"
"really" I say looking up at him
"yes love now let's get this cleaned up and we can go back to sleep"
Max unbandages my arm and gets out the first aid kit and cleans my cut up and properly bandages it up. He puts my sick covered clothes in a bag and throws them away and picks me and puts me in bed makes sure I'm ok and warm and cuddles me the whole night
⚠️TW OVER srry for it being long ⚠️
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Max and Ash (bare fluff)
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