Fuckboy! - tom kaulitz x male reader

Sleepover - chap 5

YOUR POV:

Tom had invited me to a sleepover, which was a little weird since we're.. In high school. But I accepted anyways since he said he'd have a few friends over.
I packed my bag with everything I needed and I headed over to Tom's house.

*AT TOM'S HOUSE*

"Uhm. Where's the 'Friend's you said you would invite" "Oh I didnt invite anyone, just you." "Excuse you?! What a liar! " "Well you can't leave now, your already here." "Fuck, whatever"
Me and tom we're watching a movie. Then what do you know, a sexual scene came up. Oh god. "Damn, Becky gave me head like that" "Becky? The school nerd?? " "Ehh, long story. She was good though" I rolled my eyes. "Have you done it before? " "Your making me uncomfortable, tom" "No, not in a weird way, just curious.." "Well, yeah I have"
"What? Who!" Tom exclaimed. "Nathan, I gave him head." "Damn, I can't be your first" I side eyed Tom. "Why him anyways? " "he was my boyfriend. Tom."
"Oh. Dang. Cant be your first love either." "Your cringe" "Pft, whatever"
It turned into awkward silence, I wanted to keep the conversation sooo.. "What turns you on? " I asked Tom. I know, stupid question but.. I just wanted to know... "Damn never thought you would ask me that" "Nothing weird, I swear" "Well, facial expression is a big thing for me. Also moaning. And the postion" Oh damn. I thought he would say titties or something. "How about you? " "Well uh I don't really know"
"Do I turn you on?" I stared at him for a moment, I didn't answer cause.. He does. So I just hit him with another question. "What's your favorite position?" Another stupid question. Damn I'm on a roll. "Anything where I can see their face. You? " "Uh.. Same I guess." We made eye contact for a second. "Nevermind with this conversation" "So close" I side eyed him. AGAIN. This dude is whack and cute at the same time. "Do you like anyone? " Tom asks me. "Uh, no not anymore" "You sure? Remember jaeden?" "How.." "I see you looking at him at the hallways!" "I don't like him anymore!" "Good cause I would've been mad" "Of course" "Why do you still look at him?" "Cause I just.. Im..." "Sometimes you make me with I was Jaeden. "
I looked at Tom. But he was just staring at the tv. I felt bad. "Tom.. I'm sorry but I just don't.. Like you.." "I know, it's obvious." "I'm really sorry..." "It's okay, you can't control your feelings for me anyway." I can tell toms upset. "You know what, I'm just gonna go" I said as I picked my bag up and left the house.

TOMS POV:

I was shattered. I genuinely loved him. I would've done everything, but I'm just not enough. I can't do anything else but move on. It is what it is I guess..

*A MONTH LATER
YOUR POV:

I heard toms got a new girlfriend. And about jaeden... I found out he was a cheater. And straight asf. I kinda miss Tom... I know it's wrong to be crawling back when I got my heart broke but, what I did was wrong.. I was too harsh on Tom.
I walked into the locker room to get my stuff and I saw Tom and his girlfriend making out. The hand placement, the way he looks at her. I was jealous, that shouldve been me. I want tom. I want him. So bad.
I talked to aliyah on how I felt. "Try to be friends with him again, and hope for the best" "Well, uhmm..." "Cmon! If you want him make some effort! You can't just be sitting around sulking on how you want to-" "Be quite! People can hear us!" "Sorry.. But you have to make effort!" "Fine, I'll try talking to him again later!.." "Good. Go get that man"
I was at science class and I'm sat beside tom. I kept looking at him, I was too scared to say anything. "Hey, tom" was the best thing I could mutter. "Hm?" He said making eye contact with me. I was melting. "You know, I miss you. As a friend! " "uhm.. I thought you didn't wanna talk to me anymore.. You cut contact with me" "No.. I... Just I thought you were mad at me since I didnt..." "I wasn't mad, just a little heartbroken. Nothing else." "Oh.. Well.. Can we be friends again?" "I guess so." "Okay.. "
Well that was awkward.

"Yes! You did it! I knew you could" aliyah exclaimed. "Yeah.. Problem is were very awkward." "Yeah... That is a problem but you just have to make conversations more. Like text him more! " "I guess I can try that..."

TOMS POV:

In all honesty, I still had feelings for
Y/N.... I only dated my girlfriend to try to loose feelings for him but it didn't work. Yeah I loved her, she made me feel like something for once but.. It just doesn't give me the same feeling Y/N would.

*NEXT DAY*

I was walking around school then I heard shouting in the auditorium of our school. "You didn't even fucking love me?! You only used me for my money?!"
"Who wouldn't!!! Your a fucking playboy! No one will love you! " I took a peak to see who it was.. It was tom and his girlfriend. "Awh.. Now your fucking crying! Wipe your tears asshole! Your not a baby! " "I loved you!" He shouted with a cracky voice. "And I didn't! " the girl said as she walked out the auditorium. I acted like I was trying to open a locker. Tom was just sobbing in there. I felt so bad.
I walked in the auditorium and I sat beside tom. "Y/N will anyone ever love me genuinely? " I cupped toms face and I kissed him. He pushed me away "No, no dont force it" "I love you tom!" I kissed him again and he wrapped his arms around my shoulder. "I didn't think you would-" "Tom the truth is I loved you. I was jealous of your girlfriend. I wanted to be her. I would've done everything to be her." "So.. Your mine now? Finally?"
"Yes tom. I'm yours. "

AUTHORS NOTE:
WTFF I WAS GENUINELY COOKING CHAT!! LONG CHAP TODAY HOPE Y'ALL LOVE IT!!!! 🙈💕