well, it hits different

★ it's time to let go (I won't)

Satoru

It was the time, the time where i would celebrate his death, December. Even though he did not die at that time, it feels like i was empty inside without him being by my side. It hurts, but it was the truth.

I took my polaroid camera and went out, the cold air brushing against my skin, but all i could think about was the building up guilt in my head. It should've been me, it was me who's supposed to die. Not him, though, it was a long time ago, i still feel like i was at blame why did Suguru die at Toji's hands, it was horrific.

Letting go of him was the hardest thing to do, but eventually, i started feeling empty again, waiting to be filled with someone i love. But he was the one who was the match for me, no one could love me more than he does. Shaking off my thoughts, i walked through the almost empty street, making my way to our school, the school we once hated. And i still do, but Suguru was so fucking dumb he had his body buried there, now i have to go there every single day.

I reached the school in an instant, snapping a quick picture of the scenery, i placed them inside my bag, i want to preserve memories. People don't seem to notice me when i walk through the hallway, it was weird since they would immediately notice me because of my bright hair and usually bright eyes, but it was now clouded with a sorrowful feeling.

Although I frankly didn't care about it, because I wanted to head straight on the tree where his grave lay. I fiddled with my camera as I played around with the lens, why is it getting on his grave so long as I could imagine?

Finally reaching it, i made a smile of victory, taking a quick picture at the tree that was blooming with sakura flowers, i sat beside his grave, staring at the sun that was perfectly set, a lot of people are probably walking their way to their work or school. I want to see it, but Suguru was keeping me here. I smiled softly, looking down at his grave.

"It's been a year, i miss you."

I spoke, this tree, this tree was the one we always talk about, it was our tree. This is where we first met, when i was climbing this up and i fell, he was there to catch me. He even called me an asshole because why was i climbing a tree anyways? I was really glad he came into my life, what would i do without him? He was my only hope. But it was sad he was taken away from me too.

We can't always help getting emotional, so i wiped some tears that were blurring my vision, much better. What could have happened if i died at that mission too? What would happen to the world now? I kept asking myself about it, because it's the only way to keep me from unaliving myself.

"My love." I heard someone called for me, it was like, it was his voice.

My blue orbs widened, am i actually crazy now? Why can i hear his voice, his dead for fuck's sake! But feeling someone was holding my hand, i immediately snapped my head towards my lap, seeing a glowing hand touching mine.

"S-suguru?.." I croaked out.

"Shh, it's okay my love, I'm here now." He reassured me, pulling me into a cold hug.

"H-how could this happen? You're dead now.. i-"

"I was, and I'm taking you now.." He spoke in the softest tone.

My mind was hazy, it was spinning. Him, taking me, where? Countless questions began popping in my head, could it be? No, i have to make sure of it. Is that why everybody's ignoring me? It was only him who died, and Riko too.

"Huh?"

"Don't you remember honey?"

I was thinking for a moment before it struck me, i was dead. For a long time, i got killed by Toji while on the mission, he stabbed me to death, i was killed. I placed a hand on my mouth, though i was trembling with realization. Tears came pouring in no time, the truth hurts. Suguru was quick to hush me, telling me it's fine.

"I was dead... This whole time?" I cried, my voice trembling.

He didn't speak, just whispering sweet nothing to my ears. I don't deserve him, i was dead. I am imagining all of the things that happened to me? Where was he when i was doing all of it? I sobbed harder, staining the imaginary clothes i have. Everything was my imagination. All of it.

I cried for a whole hour and Suguru was there to calm me down, when i was done, my eyes were puffy and i couldn't breathe properly.

"Now, are you okay now?" He asked and i just nodded, thinking what to say.

He stood up from where he sat and looked around before looking at me. He then extended his hand out, seemingly offering it to me.

"Satoru, it's time to let go."

I looked up at him and sobbed softly, i frowned. Does that mean I'm going to come with him? But it was fun here, even though it was all fake. At least, i had fun for a short period of time here. But i kept thinking, is it more fun than Suguru? I like him better, he makes everything ten times better. But..

"I don't want to." I declined.

He shook his head and crouched down. "But it'll be more fun, with me." He stated, smiling softly.

"Would it be?"

"Yes, now come, everybody's waiting for you.." I nodded and took his hand, the polaroid camera slipping off my hand, it made a soft thud as it hits the ground, but neither of us found a will to care.

For once, i felt so light, it was like I weighed like a feather. Everything felt so relaxing, and it was so much for me. I continued following him with our hands intertwined.

Suddenly, everything felt like it was overtaken by the light that was in front of us.

We finally reached it.

-

"Eh, Megumi, what's this?" Yuji asked, a first year student at jujutsu high.

"Don't just come around picking up some things on the ground!" Megumi scolded, snatching the polaroid camera that was looking old and rusty. Yuji piped behind him, caging the raven between his arms.

"It looks old.." He mumbled, and Megumi could only nod.

"Shall we open it?" Yuji asked.

"Okay.." They both sat, leaning against the tree bark. Megumi went to check the camera if it was working, and it was.

"Whoa! How old is this camera?"

"Who knows? The model looks like it was made in the 2000s."

"I wish Kugisaki was here, she would've loved this camera!"

"It's our alone time together." He irked.

"Megumi! Something's coming out!" Yuji shouted and Megumi had to stuff his mouth with some leaves on the ground to make him shut up. He shook the picture 7 times before looking at it.

They both raised their brows when they saw two men walking towards something. It made them curious who it was, the one who is behind the wide man has unique white hair. And the man who was leading him, are they supposed to be lovers?

"Megumi, who are these people?"