our imperfections

his pov 1.

1. His pov.
Oh my fucking god. I look down at the texts from my dad. I knew I was going to marry someone soon, that I would be engaged while I was eighteen. no one told me who I would be marrying though. the fact that it is THE y/n l/n. the girl who's been obsessed with me for the last three years that I've knew her. she's been stalking my insta, my TikTok, my Snapchat, even my fucking Facebook! I don't even use Facebook!

she would always be sitting and staring at me from across the classroom. I would wink at her and she would shake her head, blush violently and just grunt back to what the class was doing before she'd start looking again. I'm really confused actually and getting that many mixed signals really fucks with your head. one day she could be looking all day long and walk after me without me knowing (ofc I've seen her tiptoe behind me in the halls),

and on other days she would just ignore me completely, not looking my way, sitting as far away from me as possible. I asked my sister, Viviana, if this was like a usual girl thing with periods or some type of thing and she straight up told me that no, and that's unusual behavior really. after we got out of Hogwarts I didn't really see her that much as I don't leave the house that much unless it's to buy food or new records,

but y/n though, she's out every night at the club, dancing and drinking and shit. I hate alcohol really, hate the taste and I hate the effect, if really just rather be home with a glass of Diet Coke, a big pack of extra gum (sweet mint ofc😉) and some old school cartoons. I can probably consider my self an introvert. I can spend a whole day in just listening to music, journaling, or eating.

that last one has become a problem for the last so years. after I heard some girl in year seven talk about how much i must eat since I literally look like a pig and lots of other mean things. before she said those things I was a really out going guy. I would always hang out with regulus and enzo both in and after school and we would just sit up all night, talking and listening to music. we've met sometimes after we all dropped out after the battle, but I still miss them. we were the best trio in all of Hogwarts (even better than the golden trio😍).

but after that comment I've really started locking myself inside my house, trying to see as few people as possible. my siblings and parents has gotten really worried but Viviana is the only one who knows about the comments from the girl. I know I shouldn't care that much as she was just a girl who probably said shit like that all the time, but I'm a really sensitive person and I took that really close to heart.

instead of doing what I maybe should've done, I ate for comfort, I didn't stop eating but I started eating much more than usual, too much. food is my comfort no matter what I do I can't get rid of it. and always while I'm eating any kind of food I always feel super guilty and than I start eating even more. Maybe y/n did really have feelings for me back then, but then she saw how I was gaining weight and started to dislike me more and more.

I've liked her for ages though. she's just so perfect you know, perfect eyes, perfect hair, perfect body, and the most perfect smile ever. maybe she'll feel uncomfortable when we meet up tomorrow, maybe not, but I will make her say if she did have feelings for me or not. I won't let go of it this time, not again.