my secret boyfriend+ my bad boy best friend = more crazy drama

have you ever had two boys complex in love with you but you were so clubless and so sucked into your own world, that you never even notice before.

thats kind of what happen with me but its not as wonderful as it seems. most girls when they have two guys fight over her or in love with her, they are in heaven but I am not like most girls.

I am kind of a freak, I do my own thing and dress how ever I want to. I dont care what people say about me or if they like me or not.

my name is tara hollowway 

I know its werid but its actually not my name. when I was younger I hated my real name, it was beth hunger back then and people would keep on making dumb nicknames up for it. so I change my name. now no one makes fun of my name since theirs not really a silly nickname that would go with tara or with hollowway.

so your probably wondering who I am. I am just a senior high school girl who's totally nerd and freak and aloner. I don't have many friends, I only have one. I can tell you this much guys don't really notice me at all, I am invisible to them, I am actually invisible to everyone in this freaking mess up school.

but thats what I throught before this really werid goth boy with curly short black hair and bright brown eyes came walking into my life and school.  don't get m wrong girls, he was totally hot and he went to my school. but their was something different about him, for one he was a new student and he didn't care what people throught about him or said about him, in a way he was kind of a rebel, so he in way  was like me.

but also that was problem because he wouldn't talk to anyone, I was not even sure he could talk. At first i throught he just hated people but then when we were in mrs. kim's math class together and she ask him if he had a nickname people liked to call him instead of his actually name which was Michael. he did soon or later answer the her and  he told her to call him bat man.

i could'ent help but laugh out loud when he said that, i throught it was so funny but mrs. 

kim did not think so. you could tell because her face was turning so red like she was about to blow up. I think she was just mad that he actually said that in her class, to her face. most people never talk back to her or stand up to her. I think she was also mad because he surprise her, she never throught he would say that since he new student.

A new student never talk or said something like that to mrs. kim before. I throught him saying that and doing that in math class was so cool and so out of the blue.  it make me want to get to know even more. it make him lot hotter to me now and in my eyes he was a god for saying that.

but before I could even get close enough to him, he was gone. I never even noticed the bell ring in class. I guess I miss my chance to talk to him, which to be honest make me mad and really sad.

but anyways I got over that and then  after school I went over to hang out at my friend's Ryan house. my friend Ryan is totally trouble maker but he never gets me in trouble. he always starts fights but only when it involves me. that is pretty werid don't you think?  I mean whenever a guy try's to ask me out or hits on me, Ryan is not the type that likes me dating or spending any time with any other guy. he is kind of like my big brother, he very over- protect but when the idea of me dating comes up, he freaks out and  acts more like my boyfriend then my friend which he was. I mean we were just friends.  I mean its like the idea of me being with any guy or man, scares him to death.  I try asking him why he doesn't want me  dating or seeing any other guys or  why he  beats up every guy who asks me out or any guy who comes even near or close to me.  he said  it was because he was once like them, a guy who just wanted to date girl until he got what he wanted, then he would throw her away. I knew what he meant by that, he was talking about sex. he said that's all guys wanted.  he said he didn't want that to happen to me. he told me how  special I was to him. I don't know what that means but I guess it means he cares about me. which in a way make me happy, that he will always be there for me no matter what.