It just stared at me; mocking me almost. I tried to look away but it was just there yelling at me "I know you want too". Was it right did I want to forget what you meant to me it was just the way you feel, I thought I was better off without you. It's just when you feel the blood slowly fall on to the floor it makes me feel happier about life. I was just... I don't really even know I don't know where I am or what I'm doing here people said that it got better when your this age it doesn't I still feel like the social outcast I am. When I feel extremely sad I end up cutting in the bathroom just hoping that I won't get caught; once there was this person and stopped me in the hallway I wasn't sure why and she said "I know what your hiding" and she walked away. Was I sure what he was talking about after that day I never saw that kid what happened to her? Why was she so into my cuts was it how I can stand the pain or was it just simply how I can wake up everyday with a fake smile. I am even surprised that I am still alive to be honest; there is one thing that I want to know though why does everyone hate me did I do something wrong or is it because of who I am. Well, they say it's my personality is being different really why? Do they think I'm weird because I'm not one of the jocks or plastics or one of the fakes. Why are my friends even ignoring me, am I that big of a loser that my own friends don't even want to be seen with me? The one person who pretends to even be friends with isn't even talking to me anymore how could have this even happened. When I got home I was home alone as usual I locked myself in the bathroom and just cried until my old friend came and pressed on my wrist and pinched until it started bleeding drop by drop as i watched in pain. When the bleeding stopped I took at warm shower and cried some more so nobody could hear me. But the next day like the next day it all changed he came and actually talked to me "Hope hey umm can I talk to you"?
"Sure what is it" I said waiting his response.
"Would you want to go out to see a movie with me"?
"Yes, I would like that" I said
I was so exited my heart stopped and exchanged with a new one. I know I sound like a dork but really it isn't everyday that a person like him could actually like a person like me! When I got ready for this "date" I didn't know what to wear or what was too much. When he came to my house I just froze then he talked to me again
"Are you coming or are you just going to stand there"
"Well I actually wanted to go somewhere". .
