Your life started 6/11/09 , both of your parents loving each other a brother who loves you and everyone crowded around you to see the miracle your parents brung into this world. You , not a worry or thought in your freshly born mind , naïve to what the world will bring you , sleep in your mother's arms.
It is your 6th birthday, though you've been through a-lot that year , with your dad choosing hard drugs over you , your mother still tries her best to give you what you want. You run around playing with your friends you thought would be a lifetime pal , oh how naïve you were.
It is your 10th birthday, you see your father for who he is , he wants nothing to do with you so why should you beg for him to stay? You know this but still cry in your mother's arms asking why wont he be clean for you , his baby girl. Your mother knowing how horrible he is to her she still takes him back any chance she gets. You think he'll be back in a week and the family will be happy again , oh how naïve you were.
Your 13th birthday is nothing like the other 12 , you're not as happy as you were on the other 12. You're with a boy 1000 miles away , you're sure you guys will be forever , you never seem to look at things logically. You're out and about with your parents , they got together and maintained each other for you for your birthday. You get home after having a decent day getting things and seeing places. You wind down , get into bed and start texting your boyfriend, he isn't happy. You ask him what is wrong , he's dry with you. You guys argue back and forth , with tears in your eyes you wonder why is he doing this? On your birthday , a day you should be filled with happiness. Then there it is. You're faced with another girls nudes right there sent by your boyfriend. He quickly unsends it and tries to talk to you like you didn't just see that. You snap , yelling at him why has he been cheating? Have you not been enough? He decided he wanted nothing to do with you and breaks up with you. Your mother called you for dinner , with tears in your eyes confused and hurt you get up and eat quietly. You get back into your room to see a message from your now ex asking for forgiveness and he misses you , you give in. You guys are now back together. How naïve you are.
It is your 14th birthday you're happy with a boy still 1000 miles away , even so in the same state , city and goes to the same school as your ex. They even have the same name but yet they hate each-other. Your brother , not so loving and doest talk to you as much , he's too focused on getting pussy and having fun , you don't really care he didn't serve much purpose for you. You're getting many birthday wishes and money from everyone. You notice your boyfriend gave you a short birthday wish , wow. You look past it , you're not as naïve as you once was , you know long distance wont last forever. You get on FaceTime with your boyfriend later on. You guys are talking , a conversation came up and he calls you fat. Sitting there dumbfounded you hang up on him and call your best friend crying. Shes laughing calling you dramatic , " I cant believe this.." , you think to yourself. You know you should've ended things right there but decided to stay. How naïve you are.
Your 15th birthday is coming up. High school is hard , your best friend and you fall out. You're mother once so proud of you finds your grades slipping and you drinking and smoking and sneaking in boys. What a bad child you've came out as. You're stuck in this hole of depression you can seem to get out of. When will it end? You thought you were clean from 6 years ago when you first picked up a blade. Shows that you're not. You start cutting away , seeing the blood drip from your arm as you tear up seems calming. Youre not so naïve no more.
