A Good Demon

9/22/19

It's My Birthday! Wahooo!!!!

Man, I've been psyched for weeks! I'm turning twelve, and tomorrow I start 6th grade! It's kinda crazy honestly. I'm not sure if I should be excited, or terrified.

But well, that's what this journal is for. Writing down my thoughts and worries. As much as I will use it for that, I also wanna be able to look back when I'm older! It'll be cool to see what future me thinks of present me (I hope future me is doing well!) ((He's not, but the notion is nice.))

I got a whole bunch of presents today! First off, I got this journal. It seemed like a lame present at first (especially in comparison to my twin brother's remote-controlled car) but I'm learning to like it. I think... The journal is a marble red-black pattern, with a gold engraving on the front of my name "Adam".

I also got a bunch of chocolate (my favorite candy!), as well as action figures from my favorite TV show, a few new books, a couple letters with money, and an odd red and blue crystal necklace. ((Irrelevant as it may be, chocolate is still my favorite candy.))

The necklace was a gift from my Uncle Sam. He's a very, err, interesting guy? I don't know, he's very closed off, and doesn't seem very fond of anything really. But my dad (his twin brother. Isn't it crazy there are two pairs of twins in this family??) Likes having him around.

My twin, Conner, got a similar necklace. Though it was a little more blue than red. Uncle Sam was very hesitant when giving them to us, almost as though he didn't want to. It made me wonder if my dad had made him buy these for us.

I'm not ungrateful for his gift. Just, skeptical. He told us to keep the necklaces close by all day and night, that they're a sign of good luck. ((Should've been more skeptical...))

I'm not exactly gonna give up potential good luck. I'll definitely need it for tomorrow. I'm absolutely terrified that I'm gonna get lost in the big concrete building that is "middle school." I'll have more than one teacher a year now, how will I remember them all?? What if I forget and walk into the wrong classroom? God that would be so embarrassing. All the looks from the other students trained on me, I can almost hear their snickering and laughing in my ears!

Even worse, what if I'm stuck in a class with no one I know? What if all my friends and my brother are on completely different sides of the building? What if there's an emergency?? What would I do? ((Funny how this was my greatest fear when I was twelve.))

I don't think I can answer any of those questions, just thinking about them shakes me to the core. But, it is nice to write it down on paper. Somehow the words are less scary when you can see them.

Hey, maybe this good luck charm will help me after all.

((Little did I know it would make my life a living hell.))