I have fallen for a star that I will never reach like a child trying to reach for some that too far the problem is I can't stop. I hated myself for being different like normal girls will talk about having a boyfriend or wanting new clothes everyday or wanting kids. In school people look at me and my personality and say you're too old for or say I am crazy and if I said I want to wear a suit the school girls will call tomboy . Kids think it's not a big deal but thanks to that I started having a voice in the back of my head. I still have it and hate it . That's when I started to change my personality to fit in people are different but the darkness is a thing not to run away from because we made darkness we made sins in it because no one can see in the darkness but in the light every one can see us we cannot make sins there. Even my friends don't know my real personality only my best friend or I like to call my sister. I feel like a rose 🌹 people take me and if they get bored of me they threw me and they say they love me.Is it my fault that I am different did I ask for it for god sake I didn't even want to be born. people scary me. They say you are a child and you can't know the pain of living . How do i know then . That's why I don't call my human. But people think I need pity or something. I pray to God that I will change but I never change but I met a lost soul that was like mine my sister . Hell or haven she was still here. We think love is beautiful but there is a different love like friendship when I met her I saw something like the true beauty something I can call human .Some people don't know true beauty because they are scared of something different but I love different things and my sister is beautiful. She can be myself with her. I stand with her forever but even if she gets bored of me i would say thank you for having me. She is the greatest human l ever met . People change for power or money . Sometimes I think I don't like people who can judge you but they are not great themselves. I would like to die alone then have fake people around me . Sorry for ruining my life people think broken glass can be fixed even if you try nothing can be fixed with a sorry. That's nice . I never want to have kids or I am scared to start a cycle of trauma . I don't think I will be a good mother or I am afraid my kid will be like me . I don't know but I don't want to
be a mother. I live life with no meaning . Am just a child. Don't fell beauty I fell for I story it tells. Give me the scariest thing and I call it beautiful. I never fear beauty. I never cry if someone hurts me because it feels normal but if someone is nice to me i cry.
