Things I'm doing in life

Mental health (TW - self-harm)

I've been doing terribly lately...I currently have 20 cuts on both my arms, 40 total, and as I write, I plan on adding at least 4 to both my legs.

Honestly, it's all because I have no friends in real life. I like to think I'm easy to talk to, but I also hate being around people. Every guy at my school mocks me and my neurodivergency, and I genuinely fear getting stalked because one guy has a crush on me and has done many different things (all weird) to get my attention. At one point he stared at me out of a car while we were in the school parking lot and it scared me.

I really hope life gets better because I really don't want to be alive anymore.