Catastrophic Clouds: Heartrending Verses

Caged

I've been living in the shadows, afraid to take a chance

In the darkness of my doubts

My body is frozen, unable to learn the simplest dance of life

I never got to learn how to bring joy into my own life

The shadows suffocated any flicker of hope or courage

Every breath I take is tainted with the bitter taste of any good thought or emotion

I believed a lie that I was worthless and unloved

Sitting in silence, afraid to take a breath

They will punish me again if I make a sound

Lost in this darkness, feeling so absent

I've been living in doubt, with a broken heart

Thinking they're better off without me

I think and think, suffocated by my thoughts

Never did I think of myself into being happy for their sake

They deserve better than me, I have nothing to offer

"I'm not enough," a self-made cage

"I'm worthless and miserable," the lock that binds the cage

The key was thrown away into the void

Chains of doubt wrap around my heart, their grasp suffocating

They try to save me, their words an echo in the void

I believe it's my demons mocking me

So, I make myself deaf to ignore their pleas

Drowning in sorrow, tears streaming down my cheeks

Their voices echo in the hollow silence, fading away like a distant memory

Loneliness wraps its icy fingers around me, whispering my name with cruel delight

My heart grows heavy, pain setting in

Realization of what I've done

Too late to go back

Blood dripping from the wrists, the memories cut too deep

My memories, once etched into my mind, slowly fade away like ink on a page when it drowns in sorrow

An image of a crowd flashes, familiar faces laughing

For a moment, I wanted them to see me, yearned for a connection

Alone in the crowd, I remembered where I was

People turned to faceless shadows, fading back to reality

Hope withers and crumbles, feeling too weak to fight back now

My dreams have died, joy absent

The darkness inside consumes me, but I don't feel the pain now

The shadows loomed too tall for me to jump over

I embraced them long ago, unable to let them go

I close my eyes, for the last time