Whispers of heart

Him

    I liked him so much,
So much that my moods danced to his silent tunes
without our knowledge
....
A glance at him
kept me at trance all day
...
His casual conversation with other girls
Was enough to make me jealous all day
...
I feel miserable
...
I just don't understand
...
Why do I even like him?
...
Is it wrong to like someone?
...
If only I met you first, will our story be different ?
...
How could I have know you are someone else's ?
...
Was it all my mistake?
...
had I known this before, 
I wouldn't have had these unnecessary heartbreaks,
right?
...
If only I was able to turn back the time,
How great that would be?
...
Well who knows,
  this stupid heart would have fallen for you hopelessly again.
...
In every timeline,
I'm fated to love you silently
And I
gladly accept this.
...
Still ,
to be the second lead in
my own story,
doesnt it sound disheartening ?