darkest hour

chapter 1

I had always lived my life in the shadows. I knew no one, not even myself. My mum died when i was born and i grew up with my dad ever since. We weren't close. Although we were related, he kept his personal life from me.

Most times, he would come back blood soaked and if i ask him, d only answer i would get would be ''go to sleep, its nothing you should worry about''
I was allowed to have one friend zephyr wen i turned 17. He was my father's best friends son and also my secret boyfriend

I went over to his house to explain the changes i had been experencing for some time now. Sometimes, it would be unending headache and other times, i would feel like ripping something off. I told him everything, but he didnt seem like he was in the least bit interested in wat i was telling him. He had dis worrisome look on his face, and i wondered wat was wrong with him.

"Are you even listening to a word of what am saying". I asked and he looked up at me.

"Yeah, i am, its just that i dont think there's anything wrong with you. If anything, you've grown more beautiful". He said pulling my cheeks.

"There's something you're not telling me. Whenever you deviate from whay we are talking about to tell me how beautiful i am, it is usually because you dont want me to know about something, or you dont want me to do something". His facial expression changed to that of hurt. He looked at me, his eyes trying to tell me something, but i couldnt make out what he was trying to say.

"Why would you think that".

"Because that's what everybody's been doing for years now-keeping things from me".

"Look, its not something you should bother yourself about. Am sorry but i cant tell you anything" .

"That's what i thought too. I really dont know why i came here in the first place, you're just like my dad, and am a fool for thinking you'd be different. Sorry for invading your privacy". I said with tears in my eyes. I turned to leave but he held my hand stopping me.

"let go". I said

"My love, listen to me, i promise that when the time comes, i'll tell u everything u need to know, but for now, stop trying to find answers, its for your own good"

"Correct me if am wrong, but did i just hear you say for my own good?". I asked pulling my hand from his.

"Sleepless nights, unceasing headaches, a soulless father that doesnt seem interested in whatever happens to me, and a boyfriend that doesnt trust me enough to tell me anything. Please tell me, how's it for my own good". I asked but he remained silent.

" You know what, forget it, just forget everything, forget the years we knew each other, forget everything we've been through, just fotget it".

"At this point, i think that's the best thing to do". He said without looking at me.

" Am sorry, but i need to be somewhere right now".

" Wow somewhere, there was a time you would tell me everywhere you went, even if it was to the bathroom, you still told".

"This time, its different". He said and left the room.

"Seriously zeph, are we really doing this. You cant just walk out while am still talking. You know what? Am coming with you weather you like it or not" i said and ran after him.