MASK

I said Goodbye !

After Mary left that day, I was taken to the jail, then to the court and then again to the jail.

I briefly met my parents a few days. They yelled at me, argued themselves. They blamed each other and none of them wanted to take my responsibility.

Did I tell you my parents are like most divorced parents? Arguing and blaming each other and I had to stayed back and forth between them until I was 20 due to my health. Then when I got into college, I moved out and kept bare minimum contact with them. You know as much needed to.

So I would say my family issues are not so unique or something that would turn me into a killer. It's solely my own issue.

So I was sent to jail and it's been 6 months since then. A few close people around me and reporters came to visit me but I didn't meet them. I don't have anymore energy left for that.

I have been spending my day eating, sleeping and zoning out for the whole day and yeah, I had to join some compulsory mental health sessions.

I am today sitting at the canteen ,it's lunch hour now. They served potato soup and some veggies which taste, I don't care enough to notice.

The prison guard women came to me and said," Someone came to meet you."

-" I don't want to."

-" She said you will come if I say her name."

I looked at her in disbelief, " Mary? Dr. Mary Cooper?"

-"Yes, should I say you rejected..."

-" No, I will meet her."

-" Alright then, come with me."

As I was walking toward the visiting room, I felt a rush of excitement that I have not felt in a long time. I have been a living corpse but suddenly I feel like a human again.

-" Listen, you have ten minutes, don't cause any problem."

-" Okay."

I entered into the room, she is siting across me behind the protecting glass. I want to hug her but now looking at her face is also more then enough.

-" Jenny, how have you been?"

She says with a smile. As warm as I remember, her voice, her face, her hair and .. she looks tired.

-" I am fine. What about you?"

-" Not much fine you see."

My heart dropped because I know why she is not fine. It's me, I made her sad, I betrayed her.

-" Jenney?"

-" Ha...ah...I am sorry. I really am. I know it's too late now but i don't know what to say anymore."

-" I know. I came here to meet you for the last time."

-" Why?.... I mean you don't have to come to see me. I know how hard I made things for you. You had to go through a lot because of me."

-" No, not because of that, I am leaving."

-" Huh! what?"

-" I am moving to a different country."

-"Why?"

-" Things been pretty tough here, so I thought about changing the weather. I came to say you goodbye."

-" I am wrong, why would you leave? I lied you, I didn't tell you the truth. It's not your fault."

-" Jenney, I wish I did a good job. If I did I think you and me won't be here like this. I regretted a lot . I can't blame you for everything, you asked for help but I couldn't save you. You told me enough, it was my job to understand it but I couldn't. I am sorry. "

-" I messed up your life, I should be sorry. Do you not hate me?"

Your ten minutes is up. Come out miss Jenney Callista.

-" Jenney, goodbye."

I want to scream, I want to stop her. I want to say she is not at fault, she is the only person I had and I didn't want to lose her. I want to beg her to not hate me but I could not. I have no rights to.

Only some tears fall down sliding my cheeks.

The prison guard drags me back to my room and till then I don't remember how long I am sitting in the corner without even moving.

-" It's lunch time, come out and eat. Hey, do you not hear me? whatever."

Now I sit around and think about every thing I did and didn't. When I was five my parents got divorced, was it because of me? May be solely not but I played a little role for sure.

I had few friends and they are gone. Why did I kill them? If I didn't everything would be different. And Mary, the only person who understands me, love me, care me, make me happy is also gone forever. I made her sad, I made her hate me.

I messes up and it's too late. I cannot go back, can I? Someday I wish I could go back, I wish I could stop everything from happening, I wish ....... I am so stupid.

I am laughing so loud, everyone looking at me thinking that I have gone crazy but do they know I am actually crazy?

This prison is not my punishment. My feelings are my punishment, My regret are my punishment. Me not have control over myself is my punishment.

About the mask I haven't seen her since that day in Mary's eyes. Is it because of my heavy medication? They give me so many pills everyday and then I feel nothing. I also remember nothing like I was in a daze the whole day.

So I didn't took the pills they gave me for last few days. I want to see the mask women, I have got another plan and I need her.

I need her help to kill one last person. Then she and I both be free. I will say her goodbye for forever.

And today is the day. I can finally see her in the mirror with the exact same expression.

-" Good bye Jenney Callista."

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***Thanks for reading the story, this is my first time writing on this platform and I hope you enjoyed reading it. As English is my second language, I am really sorry for my mistakes. I will try to improve more and bring better works. Thank you very much.