Things I Couldn't See Before (ON HOLD)

Things I Couldn't See Before

My real name is Peyton Rodgriguez, but I hate my name. I mean who names their child Peyton? isn’t that a boys name or something? I don’t blame my parents though , they were probably drunk or high when they named me. But then again I should blame them. There the reason I’m like this, the reason I have trust issues, people call me Smiley. I’m half Dominican and half Puerto Rican, 17 years young, my favorite color is black I hate the color pink.

 I was raised in the Bronx until I was... well until now.

 My parents left me last week and now my stupid aunt wants me to move with her to sunny California. I just can’t wait! (Note the sarcasm)

  I put the last of my things in the suitcase that Frieda bought me. Freida is my aunt. I took my suitcase taking one last glance at my apartment and went downstairs.

  I waited for my boyfriend Alex to come. A few minutes later I saw him walking up the block wearing a dark blue jean jacket, black shirt and light washed jeans, when he came to my door we just starred at each other for a good minute.

  He took me in his arms and held me tight. I sniffed his jacket, force of habit. He smelt of weed and air freshener.

 “I almost forgot.” I reached into my back pocket and pulled out a little bag. “Mail this to me when I leave ok babe?” I told him. He gave me a questioned look but nodded. He looked me in the eyes.

  “I will never forget you, you’re the best thing that ever happened to me iight?” Alex said.

  “I’m a have B look after you while I’m gone, if she tells me you back with them you best believe I’m coming back to get your punk ass and you coming with me.” I declared. Alex nodded.

 B is my best friend, her names Bianca but she prefers B. I heard a car horn. I turned my head to look and saw it was Frieda.

“I can’t leave I’m waiting for B!” I yelled to her.

“We don’t have all day, the plane leaves at 4:40 its 4:26 lets go!” she yelled back.

  “We got like 20 minutes calm your tits.” I mumbled. Alex laughed, damn I’m gonna miss his laugh... I’m gonna miss him. I spaced out starring at him while he bit his lip.

 I felt somebody on my back. Just by the orangey curls I knew it was B.

                “Bianca get off!!!” I said pushing her to the ground.

 “ALRIGHTT” She yelled in my ear. “Bitch.” I said. She rolled her eyes and pulled me in for a hug.

                “I’m gonna miss you Smiley” she mumbled against the crook of my neck. I felt her tears sliding down my shoulders. I nodded holding back my tears.

  I can’t cry I wont cry crying is a sign f weakness and you’re anything but that, I repeated in my head.

  I hugged Alex and B for one last time before walking to the back seat of Frieda’s car. I put in my ear phones from the iPod ( that I’m pretty sure Alex stole for my birthday) in my ears and squeezed my eyes shut while Frieda rambled on and on about how great California is.

                 We got out the car and my suitcase on the luggage thing and went to the security line. The security and other boys were looking at my ass.

  I rolled my eyes “can I fucking help you?!” I snapped, they all looked away.

                Frieda stroked my arm as if it will calm me down. I moved my arm away from her, grabbed my things, and went on the plane. I put my earphones in again but this time I went to sleep.

  I woke up to Frieda shaking me lightly. “We’re here.” She whispered. I looked out the window and sure enough we were at a California airport.

***
When we got to Frieda’s house she showed me my room.

Oh. No. she. Fucking. Didn’t.

My walls were pink, the bed sheets were pink, the carpet was pink, and everything was either pink or white.

“I hate pink”. I gritted through my teeth. Frieda let out a frustrated sigh and walked out my room.

I unpacked my stuff and put it into my white dresser. I went downstairs and I heard Frieda on the phone. “Yeah actually my niece Peyton is here she flew in today from New York. Yeah, that would be great, see you soon”. I cringed at the sound of my real name.

“Peyton we ha-“she started but I cut her off.

“Smiley.”

“What?”

“My name is Smiley.”

“I understand that you want to be called Smiley but in California you will be Peyton.” she said making air quotes around smiley.

“Well then I guess I won’t be meeting your rich friends.” I mumbled.

I went to my room, locked the door, put on my pajamas, plugged in my earphones, and climbed into bed.

When I was done, a few minutes later I heard the doorbell. Annnd cue music. I drifted off to sleep.

I woke up the next morning at 11:23. I stretched and got off of bed not caring what I looked like. I went downstairs and saw a lady in her mid 30’s and a boy 17? 18? I don’t know. I headed towards the fridge not paying any mind to them.

  The woman cleared her throat. “Hello, you must be Peyton” I ignored her and pulled the waffles out of the freezer and put them in the toaster.

 “Well I’m Margaret and this is my son Ben. We’re friends of Frieda.” the woman named Margaret said. I shrugged my shoulders.

When I turned around this “Ben” guy was checking me out. I scoffed. I look like a freaking birds nest right now. Really? My waffles popped up from the toaster and I put them on a plate and poured some orange juice in a cup.   “Excuse me; I have to use the restroom.”Margaret said getting up. Ben opened his mouth to say something but I walked away. I went upstairs to my room and ate my breakfast.

  I went on Facebook through my iPod and saw that B was online.

Smiley :]: wassup B?

B So Highh: SMILEYYY :]]

Smiley :]: LML how’s Alex?

B So Highh: OHHH IIGHTTT I see how it is

Smiley :]: stfu cos you know ILOVEYOU with no spaces, forever and always 07.04.10 $ky-high

B So Highh: lml I KNOWWWW

Smiley :]: lmfaoo I’m out but ask Alex if he sent my stuff already.

B So Highh: he said no

Smiley :]: Smack him -____-

B So Highh: he alreadii smacked :’D

Smiley :]: ~ BYEEE ~

B So Highh: BYEE SMILEY ILOVEYOUUU

This girl had me dying. She’s just too much.

  I went to the living room and saw a note on the coffee table.

Peyton,

That was the only thing I read before I crumbled the paper and threw it on the floor. I turned on the TV and flicked through a few channels. I settled on TeenNick because they were giving a Degrassi marathon, should keep me busy.