"Im sorry" won't cut it anymore.

New city same old dread

~Note~
~plus other stuff maybe idk~
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This is after the portal and all of that it's when Axe is on his own:3
(Also this is mostly what i think the whole set up is like in my goofy little brain)
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Axe sat up against two walls watching what was going on bellow, it was a pretty far drop from here but close enough to the ground to see and hear everything that was going on bellow. the city was loud and bright he hated it, Every street Filled to the brim with those things that dared to deem themselves human, and that was honestly a part of the reason he was having to cling onto the walls with all the strength and balance he had left in him, he had a little run in with the cops nothing too new really but annoying as usual.

He heard them coming his way and he tried to shift himself up a bit more the top of the building not being too far out of reach and his large glowing tail was a pretty good indicator that he was just above their heads but the second he tried to move he slanted down so that was a bust luckily they ran past the ally he was up in and after a moment he was in the clear, for now at least and the second he realised this so did his body, his legs shook, his hands were slick with sweat and his core hurt, then all at once he sunk down twisting around in the air before hitting the cold hard ground with a crack letting out a hiss of pain before just staring to yell

"FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK"
He repeated as he held the arm he fell on hitting his hand onto the ground which yeah only made things worse but after a moment the pain subsided and he got up with a groan rubbing his left arm and letting out a loud sigh before staggering over to the place he was staying it was an abandoned apartment building and as he crawled up the stairs he couldn't help but think about his 'friends' about all he'd done, about catnip, but no He had moved on he had gotten over it anyways he didn't need them he didn't need anybody he never did and look at him now! He was doing just fine alone or at least that was that he told himself he knew he wasn't and that deep down he wanted to see at least one of them again to have them say he'd be fine to say that he wasn't as bad as he really was that what he had done to everyone was an accident or that it wasn't his fault or at least he wouldn't be the monster in that stupid Fucking book.

Once he got up to the second to last level to the roof in the old apartment he stepped in kicking all his crap out the way and collapsing onto the mattress that was on the ground the moonlight barely even getting in the room was mostly illuminated by his own fire which he'd noticed lately was seemingly bluer then usual? Not by much but just enough to be a tiny tint of it But no that was stupid like everything else that in his mistaken miserable life no matter how hard he tried to ignore it with shots, party's, cocaine, self harm, sex, weed and heroin nothing ever kept it out for long.
He felt his body reset and fix itself not that he really deserved it in his eyes "my life is shit like this because I deserve it, I don't deserve to be healing like this" he thought to himself as he hugged onto a pillow thinking about it actually being something real someone real someone warm

6:35 AM
BANG
"COME OUT WITH YOUR HANDS UP YOU CANT RUN ANY LONGER"
Axe shot up looking around taking a moment to process everything before it set back in he was found by the pigs great and on one of nights were he was actually having a dreamless sleep he growled a bit before picking up his Axe- where was it? Where the fuck was it?! He swooped his tail around to try shine some more light around to find it or just anything he could use as a weapon he didn't have time for his-
"GET OUT HERE RIGHT NOW YOU SCUM WE ARENT PLAYING AROUND WE HAVE THE BUILDING FULLY SURROUNDED!!"
He heard presumably one of the cops yell outside
"FUCKS SAKE IM COMING!!! Give me a fucking break."
He yelled back knowing they probably wouldn't hear him and that's when finally he found his Axe he swung it around as he slid down a few flights of stairs and looking out the window and backing up gripping his axe tightly and pulling it onto his back before rushin forward and smashing though the window landed on top of multiple of the cops blood seeping into his clothes
"Aw I just got this dry cleaned..."
He mumbled as they all pointed their guns at him
"Fuck-"
The remanding cops were ordered to just free fire as Axe scurried off he hadn't had this many cops on his tail in a while..he was getting sloppy he knew he didn't really stand a chance against what was what? At least 50 other cops all fully armed and it seemed like ever corner he turned he ended up with more behind or in front of him..he would have to swallow his pride and- no he'd father getting his ass beat in by the fucking pigs then go back and change seeing Catnip again but as he came to his conclusion he was already jumping through the portal and out the other side his claws hitting the burning hot sand..