The sad thing is... {SOOBIN FF}

my lovely boy

I woke up, as a new person.
I had different hair, a different eye colour, a new face, a new body and a new name.

Its nothing new for me if I'm being honest, I died and got reborn as a new person plenty of times, its just how it is, you know?
There was something else I thought more of, where was my boy? The guy I loved so much, I mean the guy that treated me like a princess?
Usually I found him in every life because we were always so close but I've realized that I haven't found him yet.

I do know that he is easy to find, because there is nobody like him...

He has that unique spark in his beautiful eyes, no matter which color they had.. in every life I could find him just by looking at his face, maybe because in every other life his face always stayed the same, well not really but his features never took a big change.. my features were also similar to the past ones.

I still had sharp cat eyes and my unique birthmark near my eyebrow.. that birthmark never left me.. I wonder if he would recognize me like that too? If he even remembers me..
I mean it would be strange if he doesn't think of me.. he always remembered his past lives just like me, so it would be really weird if he can't remember me.

I wonder if he's out there laying on his bed thinking of me the way i think about him, I wonder if he knows that I remember him.
I wish he does.

There is this weird empty feeling I feel everyday, I feel how there is an empty hole inside of me which is waiting to be filled and I know that he is the only one that can fill that hole.
It hurts me, it hurts feeling how my soul is craving for him but he's not here to calm me down, for now I'll drown in this sadness but it will be worth it because in the end I will be with him.