The sad thing is... {SOOBIN FF}

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It's quite boring laying on my stupid bed all day, so I decided to get up, I called my closest friends and asked them to meet up and luckily they all agreed.
I then went to my wardrobe and took out my flared jeans, I then took out a red shirt and after that I got started on my beautiful wavy brown hair and of course on my face.

My room was filled with posters, I am a big fan of Rock so there were also albums on the wall, for example my favorites: Guns N Roses, Metallica, Nirvana and HIM.
Oh listening to music is my therapy.
I've always liked music even in my past lives.
Technically I'm living for music.

As I finished my make up I went and grabbed my black leather jacket and got in my shoes, after that I went to the place we decided to meet up, the cafeteria.

As I arrived there my Friends Lily, Jia and Mina were already sitting there waiting for me.
Oh they were a big reason for my happiness.
I quickly ordered my favorite chocolate cake and sat down next to them.

"Have you guys waited for a while?" I asked as I took a bite of the cake. Jia shook her head "No, don't worry." She replied and gave me a soft smile which I could just return.
"So what's new guys." Lily asked and looked at us with big eyes as if we had something to talk about.
I shook my head "No, but you're the Idol. You tell us some tea."
Mina and Jia just nodded. "Oh the Idol tea" Mina said as if Idol tea is something she's been waiting for.
Lily giggled "Its weird, everyone gossips about everyone and every thing. Nobody's safe"
"Damn." Jia said.
I thought of saying something and then just spoke "Lily are there any hot guys... you know long hair maybe piercings."
Lily looked like she was thinking of something. "Hmm.. do you know Hyunjin? He is a guy from my company."
"She barely knows anyone only her old rockstars.. and dead ones."
Mina said and I rolled my eyes. "show me a picture." I said and waited for Lily to pull out her phone and show me a picture.
Lily took out her phone and then she showed me a picture of a guy, he had long black hair and an eyebrow piercing...but he didn't look anything like my man.
"Meehh" I said and continued eating my cake.

After we were finished we walked out of the Cafe and roamed around the City.
Mina then said "Oh look at that TXT poster! Its for their upcoming comeback probably"
"Hm..?" I said and stopped to look at the poster everyone was looking at.. I looked at their faces and one stood out the moment I payed attention to the poster itself. Huh? Who is he? And why does he look like my sweet boy??
I stood there completely lost in my thoughts, I stared at his eyes. Why were they so beautiful like the ones of my man?
I completely forgot that I wasn't alone until I heard Jias voice, it made me flinch.
"Soomin???" Jia spoke, she was calling out my name.
"Huh???" I said surprised, I then understood that they wanted to keep walking and I just nodded and followed them. I wish I took a picture of that member but I fastly even forgot the name of the group. My head was a mess and my heart was racing.
"Girl are you okay?" Lily asked me, she didn't look worried but I could definitely hear it in her voice.
I nodded and kept walking and suddenly I felt my heart aching, I suddenly missed him even more, I wanted to finally meet him and that stupid boy on the poster reminded me of him.
Jia then put her hand on my shoulder and looked at me with her beautiful doe eyes.
"Soomin we're going to bring you home okay?"
I nodded and then I was holding Jias hand, I could feel all the sadness draining me again, the loneliness that had disappeared earlier has now returned.
I am just a mess without him.

When I was home alone again, I fell onto my bed and silently cried thinking of him, thinking of all the memories we had before.
Our precious kids we had before, the beautiful wedding and so much more and now I am again at the beginning and need to search for him, was he even searching for me?

I shortly after that calmed down again, after my little crying session I got up and started undress to get into my pyjamas and then I went to the bathroom and started cleaning my face and brushing my teeth.

That was my day, and the boy on the poster was randomly popping out in my head again, he looked so much like my love.
I really wanted to know his name but I stupidly forgot the name. I can't stop blaming myself.