A Hidden Side

Simula

Life is unpredictable and scary, you don't know what will happen in the next day, maybe right now you're okay, fine and happy and the next day you'll experience to get sick and weak. Each day is your new day, new life and new start of your journey however what about those who died yet still wanna live, do they still have another chance to continue their lives and their journey?. That's why I'm scared of death because I still have a lot of dreams and am too young to meet my own decease.

Time is really too precious to waste so make it so worth while you're living. Kasi baka gumising kana lang na kaluluwa diba?.

I mentally laughed at my own thoughts.

Nandito ako sa kwarto ko nakatulala lang. Iniisip kung kailan kaya ako mananatili dito and hanggang saan lang ang kaya ko?. I have a lot of questions, questions that I don't even know if it will ever be answer.

Napalingon ako sa pintuan ng may biglang kumatok.  I am pretty sure that it was my mother. Siya lang kasi ang nangangatok sa gabi para ipainom ang gamot. Nakalimutan ko kasi kanina uminom.

"Bukas po yan" I said while waiting at the door to finally open and see my mother to enter.

And I was right, si mama nga ang pumasok at dala ang tray na may lamang tablets for my weak heart. It's my daily medicine every night, masakitin kasi ako eh. Sa aming apat na magkakapatid ako ang pinakamahina at napakamasakitin. Kaya hindi ko din masisisi kong grabe silang dalawa ni papa ka protective, after all this is for my own sake.

"Anak, you always forgot your meds" nakasimangot na saad ni mama pagkapasok pa lang niya. Kahit nakasimangot maganda pa din, unfair.

My mother is really undeniably beautiful kahit forty five na siya ngayon. Well I am pretty too and so is my sister but yong ganda kasi ni mama yong gandang hindi ka magsasawang titigan kaya I can't really blame if my father is so head over heels to her.

I laughed and smiled at her.

"I'm sorry mama. Promise I won't forget to intake next time" Sabi ko sabay taas ng kaliwa kong kamay.

Mas lalo lang siyang sumimangot, gusto ko tuloy tumawa ng malakas. She knows na palagi ko yong sinasabi pero waley effect pa din.

Pinanood ko lang siyang ilagay muna ang tray sa study table tapos pumunta sa harap ko.

"Ayan kana naman sa promise-promise nayan tapos makakalimutan mo pa din, tsk." she rolled her eyes afterwards then she hands me the medicine.

Haystt. Gamot na naman. Kaya parati kong kinakalimutan uminom ng gamot dahil ayaw ko talaga. I hate medicine kasi wala namang effect pahihinain lang ng gamot na yon ang katawan ko. That's why I always pretend that I forgot pero hinahatid padin ni mama.

I sighed and took the medicine inside my mouth and she immediately handed me a glass of water.

Pagkatapos kong uminom ng gamot ay tumalikod agad si mama at inilagay ang baso sa tray saka humarap ulit sakin.

"I know that you don't like to drink your medicine but anak it's for your own good din naman yon eh. So next time don't you dare forget your medicine Cass, understood?." she said while staring at me in a serious way.

Napasimangot agad ako.

"But Ma-" hindi ko pa man natapos magsalita ay pinutol niya na agad. She knows na magdadahilan ulit ako.

"No buts Vielly Cass. At wag kang magpuyat, matulog ka ng maaga." she convicted said and turned her back hanggang sa tuluyan na siyang nakalabas sa kwarto.

Natulala ako agad. That is my mama, she's mad if I didn't do what she said and even I don't want to I still need to do it. I always obeyed her. Ayoko siyang magalit, nakakatakot kasi ang lakas-lakas pa naman ng boses.