Yesterday I thought about you
I almost had texted you but
then you did it first
You said
"I miss you and I know your happy now but I'm not"
And I am happy
But being happy without you
Feels like I betrayed you
Like I'm standing on the edge of the pool soaking wet
Watching you sink
I should feel relief that no one is saving you
Because you pushed me into the pool first knowing I couldn't swim
Then I was saved but not by you
By the reason I'm happy
I hope that someone dives in to save you
But it won't be me
Because I still haven't learned how to swim
But I don't need to now
Because my love isn't a pool
It's a forest in the spring
I'm on land
free to walk
Free to discover new things everyday
I'm sorry I can't be your happiness
I'm sorry you forgot how to swim
Hopefully you'll find your own forest someday
But I'll never try a pool again
You taught me that kind of love is dangerous
And sure the forest has animals that could hurt me
But that pain is better than drowning
