Inadequacy
My potential is my weakness in every aspect. Every second that ticks and each day that passes I measure up to what I can be , what I should be , and essentially lose who I am.
My loyalty is pure ; systematic to my belief as a person. My loyalty is also my love and I'll accept so much it'll seem idiotic on the outside looking in. The strength of it often puts me in a questionable mindset as to why I am like this ? I've never seen a positive outcome, which only means I'm loyal to the wrong people and the wrong things .
My lack of focus goes beyond deeper than just surface issues . I hide behind my actions of loyalty & loving others because I don't know how to love myself. I emerge as a figure of so much quality to anyone but alone all I can see is wrongs & flaws . My moments of triumph are only when I'm in action of sex or when I beat the odds in gambling. No success or goal accomplished done by me has ever been acknowledged by me .
A man of many things but inadequate to himself.
