🥥The summer of my life🥥

Chapter 2

It's the first day off summer and Ava is leaving for summer camp all summer.Every summer she goes there, she really likes it. I don't really have other friends than her. I have some from volleyball and cheerleading but that's it. We hang out together all the time, alone. We once were in a friend group, in 7th grade. It was fun. But it stopped really fast.There was this girl named Sarah. At first she was kind and really fun to hang out with. But then she started to really be a bitch. She started spreading rumours about us and saying all of our secrets to have boys attention. There was this one time when I had a crush on a guy, Morgan. He was in 8th grade so he had a year older than me. He was in my brother soccer team, since Mason have a year older than me. He was the prettiest in the friend group and the kindest, he talked to me a lot when he came at my house. I thought he liked me once. But, my heart broke that day. I saw him with a girl named Taylor, the prettiest girl of middle school, well in my eyes. They were in the school hall and they gave each other a hug. I tried not to cry, even though my heart was broken. When I came back to my house I asked my brother if Morgan was dating Taylor and he told me yes. I tried to act fine with it but I'm not the best actress. He then told me that he knew I had a crush on him and that it was Sarah who told him. That's when I decided to stop being friends with Sarah and hanging out with this friends group. When I told Sarah about it, she started playing the victim but I didn't care. I was the one who was betrayed in this story. That's when me and Ava became friends, best friends. She didn't like Sarah too so we started hanging out together. That's when we became inseparable.

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Ava called me to tell me to come at her house. It's always a hard part because I tell her bye. I left my house and then started walking up to her house. It was sad but I know she is happy there. She tried to bring me there once but I like to go to the beach everyday and to go on vacation here and there better.The goodbye were hard like always.We cried.But at least it's summer.On my way back to my house I saw Zach,the neighbour,in his pool. We made an eyes contact and he waved me a hi,so did I after.

-Hello!said a voice coming from Zach parking lot
-Hi!I shouted
-Do you live next to our house?
-Yes!
-Oh,you are Olivia,Mason little sister?
-Yes I am.
-I'm Jessica,we just moved here!
-Oh you are Zach mother?
-Yes I am,nice to meet you.
-Nice to meet you too!
-We are doing a party tonight at our house, you can come if you want,you're mom already know I talked to her this morning.
-Sure I'll be there!
-Great have a great afternoon!
-you too!
Our conversation ended here.She is really sweet,she looks like a good mom.I wished my mom look like this,she is really pretty.Not like my mom is not pretty,she is pretty.But Jessica is pretty too.I don't really know what to wear tonight. But I wanna look good.Zach is going to be there and he looks good,so I wanna look good.I went inside my house and then in my room.Maybe that if I go outside to tan I'll have tan lines tonight.I tan pretty fast so it's easy.I took this really pretty bathing suits,some short and a top.Then I took my bike and left to go to the beach.I love the beach,it's were I feel safe.When I arrived I saw my brother with his friends.I didn't know he was there.I don't talk to him often.They stared at me while i pulled of my clothes.Then I headed to the water and swam for like an hour.I then decided to tan,that's when Mason came up to me.
-hey.he shouted
-hey
-Are you going to the party tonight?
-Zach's party?
-Yeah
-Probably,are mom and dad coming?
-Yes but they will leave when Zach's parent will leave.
-Okay
-Hey Olivia,you good?Shouted Morgan while doing a handshake.
-Hey, great how about you?
-Yea,so you're going to Zach party tonight?
-yeah,you?
-Yes,see you tonight Liv!Screamed Morgan as running to the water.
-See you!
I still feel something while talking to him.He was my first ever crush.But I know nothing will never happen, I'm the little sister.He saw me grow up.He saw me being at my ugliest point.I know I'm more pretty than before but I don't really find me pretty.Nobody really made me feel like I'm a pretty girl.Not like Ava,like nobody never had a crush on me.I was more the funny girl to hang out with,the friend,not the potential talking stage.Ive never had a boyfriend or my first kiss.Because I've never been pretty,well not pretty enough.IVe always been the ghost,the ugly girl.I grow up being fat.I did lose some weight 2 years ago by starving.But I all took it back and even more.I was once called the "fat girl ".That was my name,I was recognized by that name.I also had a depression because of that,because I was too fat.I had also some bad anxiety and a big school phobia.I had the constant feeling of being judged and being laugh at.Well that's how people made me feel.IVe never liked myself,like looked in the mirror and felt pretty.When I go somewhere I know I'm the ugliest,the worse of the friend group.The second choice,that's how I like to explain it.Never the first choice in a room full of people.But that's fine,I'm not pretty enough and I know it.I  still don't feel pretty even though I lost a lot of weight.I feel like it's not enough,it will never be enough.