UNBREAKABLE BONDS, MATT STURNIOLO

hoping itll get better.

me and matt talked all night because of what i did. he seemed disappointed in every text. which just made me cry harder. he tried assuring me he wasnt mad and that he just wanted to talk me through it. but everything was telling me that he was upset.

but then i heard footsteps. i knew it was my mom. "fuck fuck fuck.." i whisper under my breath trying to hurry and clean myself up and hide my blade. but i was to late. my mom walked in and saw the blood on my legs and saw me with the blade right as i was wiping it off.

"skylar.." she says with her jaw dropping. her eyes well up with tears all i can think to to is drop my blade and cry. she runs up and hugs me. but all she can ask is "why?" and "if i would've known i would've helped.." i feel like such a bad person. how could i do this to the person who gave me life? i just cry and cry.

everyone else in my house gets a bit concerned because my mom came up to tell me dinner was done, but the food was already cold by the time we all went down. i feel so bad for what i put my family through. so i stay silent during dinner. my mom didn't let me go back into my room alone. she made me sleep in her room and my dad slept in my room. the next day i went to go find all the things that had to do with my self harm and everything was gone.

shit

my dad found all of it and put it somewhere. i just dont know where. i don't bother looking because its pointless. because i know he got rid of them in a very smart way, and put them somewhere ill never find them.

i just get onto my phone, which my mom had taken last night to prevent me from becoming sad over something else. but she gave it back and let me go back upstairs to my room. only because she knew i didn't have anything to harm myself with though. i check my missed messages and calls.

*34 missed messages*
*21 missed calls*
*5 voice mails*

i feel bad that my friends had all that worry all night. but i respond to every message and voice mail. matt made up 20 of those 34 missed messages and 11 of those missed calls. not to mention he was the only one who left me voice mails.

im so in love with him..

i only really care that i worried matt. he's the one who's there for me through it all.. everyone else just asked if im okay a couple times. matt didn't stop texting until he was so tired that he fell asleep sitting up.

at some point i have to confess my crush to him, i just don't know when..

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                                          HIIII

what do we think slay period queens 😜
(im sorry 😭😭)

anyways i love you guys 😋😋