One And Lonely

If All Our Life Is But A Dream

Ryan's point of view:

Life has been grey in the past few years, it felt like everything stopped at the moment I left the band, my days were all about trying to move on the fact that on that day I lost a friend, a lover a partner, I lost the only one that I actually cared about.
I tried to move on, I really did i met new friends and went to new places but that never filled the hole in my heart.
Lot of thoughts ran into my mind about what would i say if I'll ever meet him again, and how I wanted to feel his lips against mine but let's be honest, he's better off without me I mean he already moved on and got married...
I kept thinking about it again and again as I'm driving my car to a shop to get some eggs and coffee.
When i got there I parked the car then walked wandering in the shop searching for a one familiar face as usual only this time, I actually found him.
My eyes kept checking him out damn it! when did he become that hot?! His adorable smile never left his face, his joyful big lips and cute nose, his over sized forehead and those nerdy glasses just perfect. I know I sound like a thirteen year old teenage girl describing her crush but it's the truth!
I couldn't help but to find my self walking to him, shit he noticed me he turned to me and smiled! What I'm I supposed to do now? That wasn't part of my plan! I just wanted to smell him one last time and go away but he noticed me!
"Hey Urie" i said nervously, well done idiot six years of not seeing him and that's all you got? "Hey Ross, Been a long time!" He smiled that one special smile I swear his smile can be the death of me.
"Yeah it has, huh?" I looked down at the fact that I haven't seen him in forever "only six years and few months" he laughed. Wait he counted? "So what's up?" He smiled again "wow, well... Um" i stuttered "not much has changed for me" I replied with a weak smile "cool" was all he said then looked down placing a soft smile on his face "how about you? Getting all good with Sarah?" Looks at him with sad eyes at the mention of her name "yeah" he lets a sarcastic laugh comes out, what is that supposed to mean? "She's okay, she makes me feel less lonely" , "why would you feel lonely?" I asked confused "maybe because something is missing in my life" he looked at me with those moon sized eyes with a lot of pain I couldn't help but to look at him back and bites my lips, "I ... I..." he said then took a moment of silent "I miss you Ry" said in the lowest tone he can get "I miss you too Bren... I miss you so freaking much" I whispered back.
His eyes lighted up a little when he heard my words, "so... um wanna go to my place to... catch up with things?" I said nervously running my fingers through my hair "yeah sure" he smiled brightly.
We both walked to his car and he started to drive is it even possible for him to remember where i used to live? "Do you remember where I live?" I asked curiously "how could I ever forget?" He smiled at me, he does remember! Wait does that means maybe just maybe he still likes me? But again there's ... Sarah, i wish there was any other way...
The way to my house wasn't much just small talk, nothing important few minutes later he pulled in front of my house, we walked in together he sat on the couch making himself comfortable, "so what do you wanna drink?" I asked "beer would be perfect" he smiled, i walked to the kitchen and brought two beers, handed him one and took one then sat beside him but not really close.
"So... what's up with Sarah?" I asked worried cause he didn't seems pretty well later , he looked at me and took a sip from his beer before answering "she... she's good but things are getting harder especially with the fact that my heart belongs to someone else..." Huh? What does that supposed to mean?! "Which someone?" , "God! Are you really that dumb Ryan?" He lets a sarcastic laugh out to hide the tears in his eyes then looks down "I want you okay?" he whispers looking at me "in which way?" I said in a shaky voice "in every way... those past few years were hell to me and now that I found you, I can't lose you again" i then threw my self against him and kissed him the hardest i can with tears dropping down, he was shocked at first but then he kissed me back.
i pulled away standing up after few minutes and grabbed his hand he stood up too, i led him to my bedroom and pushed him against the bed then started to take off our clothes, checking every inch of his body with my eyes, he just laid down relaxing like he has been waiting for this since forever i kissed him roughly again running my hands down his naked body he wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer to him which encouraged me to start moving my lips way down on his bare chest licking it while placing my hands on his hips, he moaned quietly at my movement i made my way down to his cock and started to suck the tip gently he closes his eyes, i pushed a finger in his entrance he moaned softly, his moans were like music to my ears
I started to thrust slowly but gets faster by time just like his heartbeat which was getting heavier by time.
I sooner later added another finger, his moans were getting louder, yeah he's moaning because of me, the thought of that made me jump inside, i added a third finger he closes his eyes and moaned louder especially when I hit his prostate "here" he said in pleasure I kept hitting that spot with my fingers for a while but later i thrusted my self in, he feels way too good around me.
I sooner found his prostate again and started to hit it every time I thrust in, he screamed in pleasure "c-close" he whined moaning loudly "come for me Brenny" i said as he came all over him self, i came right after him then pulled out collapsing on the bed, he wrapped his arms around me and i placed my face on his chest then closes my eyes, it didn't take me so long to fall asleep .