Unwanted Mystery

Forgive me, father.

Warning-  Abu$e + $uicide thoughts

3rd person pov:

Past-

"I beg your pardon" The head of the king's knights yells at his son.
"What do you mean you plan on quitting.. You are my son. A child of the most praised. You MUST follow my ways and become head of the knights after i retire. And it is final." The head of the king's knights yells while stomping toward his son.

He stomps harder towards his hurt son, as his legs angerly reach his son, a great slap landing upon his sons silk, pale face.

"Anger me again and you will get greater punishment, and you know how dangerous i can be." The head of the king's knights turns around and walks out his son's room with a loud bang from the door.

His son walks to his bed, slightly sitting on it with a deathning glare. He hated his father, he wished he would just die and never return. But not all wishes come true... Do they?

Present-

Knights pov-

I hate pratice days.. I thought to myself as i anchor my feet to the ground, and glide next to my practice opponent in a blink of an eye, with my mighty sword, leaving only a scratch on my practice opponent with my perfect handling skills.

I was perfect. Perfect combat skills, perfect victories, perfect council meetings opinions, perfect body and face... And alot more. I HAD to be perfect. Making mistakes was for the weak. I am not weak.

I am Sir. Xavier Horsewither jr.
I was the son of the current head of the king's knights and grandson of the past head. I was going to become the future head and for that to happen... Mistakes are never to happen.

My dad is a strong but evil man. He doesn't care about anyone but himself. Not even his family. Not once did he bat an eye when my mom slowy withered away on her death bed. Not once did i get a "good job son" or a simple "i love you" from him. He was pure evil.

His emotions could change anyday. Either me and my late mom got beating up to a pulp on days we simply upset and disobeyed him, or we got slaps... Hard slaps for when we talked back or had an opinion that did not follow his.

And sadly he had raised me that way. I Xavier was a menace to everyone. I couldn't care less about peoples emotions. I was the only one important and i will stand by that.

No one has ever seen my face except my parents, because i have never and will never take of my helmet when outdoors and yet people had shared these rumors about me being "handsome". Not saying they are lying but still... How can mere humans be this... Foolish?

I kill everyone that i find annoying, i get anything i want with just a simple knuckle click on my desk and still people worship me. And you want to know why they do...

Fear. Fear controlls all mere humans. The dreadful thought of dying meaningless keeps people bowing to me.

Of course my one and only father was praised and feared more than me, but i know all the secrets of the people.

They Despise Us. The most little chance they might have to end us, im sure with a smile, they would do it.

But you know what... I agree with them.

I DESPISED US. I HATE THE WAY I AM TREATED. I HATE THE WAY MY FATHER IS TREATED. WE DONT DESERVE THIS RESPECT. YES, IT MIGHT BE FAKE AND ALL BUT STILL WHY! WHY IS A KNIGHT LIKE ME LIVING AND ROAMING IN THIS WORLD with undeserved respect.

I need to end it all. I want to be free. Free like the doves that fly through the blue sky. Free like frog that croak in the flowy streams. Free like the lilac flowers that grow from mother nature... Just free.

But i will never be free. I had hurt people because of my fathers orders. I had put on this fake "badass" act just so people can hate me. And when their anger piles and i die, they shall happily smile and continue their days.

I want to die. I want to kill me and that son of a bitch that i call a father.
I want all of this to end... So i can meet my beloved mother in reeking hell.

Oh... Hahah. Dont think my mom was all an angel because she wasn't. She was so mentally disabled that i was only a useless and unwanted pest in her eyes.

I get it though. Im just lingering around. Following my dad's orders and waiting for the day to strike where i get my revenge.

Forgive me, dad.

For that day is really close.

(Will that day come or will his life change with a certain somebody😗 approaching soon)

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Yeppp thats it for my first ever chapter. I know it might seem messy, but i hope i have the creativity to make it better... Cause my lazy ass is too slow for ts😔😬

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