Until Forever

Love

A windy day I am standing in my balcony just lost in the mansion of my thoughts, when my eyes started to get blurry because of tears which were formed.

"je peux le supporter
ne m'aime pas -
je ne peux pas le supporter
l'aimer."

"tu es la lune,
et,
je suis le soleil,
mais c'est juste une autre star."

I'm standing on a thin ice between giving up and seeing how much more I can hold on

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*Memories.*

"I love you" he

"I-i"

"I loved you from the day I saw you but if you don't love me then I can wait" he

"But i-i I love someone else"

"Please love me or I will die" he

"But i don't love you, try to understand i think of you as a friend i-i just don't love you"

I left
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While I was busy in my life, when i adore the one I like whom I know doesn't like me back....a friend of mine adore me in the crowd and adopted deep feelings towards me.

My hand are shaking, I am numbed I just feel like I'm drowning and there's no one to save me..."it starts to rain".I went outside walking bare foot don't know where I am going....just walking where the destiny takes me..

When i hear a honking sound when i turned towards the sound...and i got struck by a car. I heard a voice of someone calling my name and when that person came near, it was my love whom I used to adore and that was the last time I saw him, he was crying and shouting my name.. I heard anything ambulance siren, suddenly everything went black..
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I didn't got to know but my love whom I used to adore loved me back. he saw me when I was walking by the street all numbed he decided to suprise me while proposing me.. that's why he followed me he saw me crossing road in a red signal while a car was going to hit me...he rushed to me but he couldn't save me. I- I don't wanna fall asleep, I don't wanna pass away I've been thinking of our future, 'cause I'll never see those days. I don't know why this has happened, but I probably deserve it. I tried to do my best, but you know that I'm not perfect. I've re been praying for forgiveness, you've been praying for my health. When I leave this Earth, hoping you'll find someone else
'Cause, yeah, we still young, there's so much we haven't done. Getting married, start a family, watch your wife with his son/daughter. I wish it could be me, but I won't make it out this all
I hope I go to Heaven, so I see you once again. My life was kinda short, but I have many blessings
Happy you were mine, it sucks that it's all ending.
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Years passed of that incident my wish came true. I am with my 4 years old daughter, with my love, my school crush, my husband. We promised to not talk about that incident ever again, especially infront of our daughter, later that day I was been saved by the doctors and that's all I can say for now.

Oh yea about my so called friend he got a new girl immediately when he heard my accident news. Now, He is also married and living happily with his wife and his 2 twins, one girl and one boy.
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- Dazzle.