To be a girl who just got out of her first heartbreak this day feels just WOW!!! I couldn't be more happier It feels like I was born again! Like a kid who would roam around, playing with his toys not wondering about anything at all, making him the happiest with everything he can and lost in his own world. I was just like that. I couldn't help but scream on top of lungs.
After months of being sad and depressed, today I smiled, I laughed so hard that my eyes were tearing up. Those were happy tears. Those eyes which glittered in tears from sadness, now glitters while sinking in happiness. I'm so grateful to be in this moment. I felt like something dragged me out of the drowning waters. Now I know it's depths and what it feels like be pulled down again when what I always wanted was to be rescued. I am grateful. But most of all, my mind was at peace. Peace it is! Something I almost forgot. Now I got the chance to feel it all over again.
I stood there staring at the setting sun. It mesmerized me. I always called it 'THE GOLDEN HOUR'. And it indeed was. I felt as light as a feather when the cool breeze from the ocean caressed me. Oh God! I love this. It was when I was almost buried in my thoughts, I heard something.
'Clare' she called.
I turned and peeped through the window. There she was, standing in the hall with a steaming cup of coffee in her hand. That's my sister, Emily. For me, she was more like a friend. I don't know how she does that, but whenever I'm with her, even if I am empty inside, I feel full. She just gets me!!
'What's the matter?' she asked. What's bothering you, need help??
I laughed. I could see a slight wonder from the expression she gave me. But I knew the reason behind it. I'd never laugh if she asked me this question several weeks ago, instead I'd hug her and would burst into tears. But it's all different now. I could say that she feels the happiest about me, from the look she gave me. Her glance and her eyes were always special. I've seen eyes this deep, only in her. It was fierce but was gentle. And indeed they were cunning, just as strong as it could make her glance unforgettable.
If I ever found a man who looks at me, just the way she did, for heaven's sake, I'll marry him.
She handed me the coffee.
'As if you don't know!!' I smirked at her while sipping the hot coffee.
'Oh thank God, finally I get to see someone genuinely happy' she replied.
Yes I was so happy.
'After a long time I feel so good just by myself.' I replied.
'I knew, !!' she said with a wide grin.
She always said that I was so much stronger than I thought myself to be. Yeah! It was true. I didn't even picture myself here, so involved in the moment, carefree, happy and most of all.. Complete! But she always knew that I'd make it.
We haven't spent time together in a very long time and I wanted to give her a day, just the two of us. But I also wanted to see the sunset, so we stood there for a little longer.
'Have you got the keys? I asked her. Even though I am the eldest, I have never felt it.
She stared at me with her mean eyes.
' Yeah, gotcha'. She replied.
I was dressed in one of my fave gowns. With each of them, I carried a great deal of memories. I felt discomfort every time I wore them. It wasn't the same today, though. It was entirely distinct. I was never again in pain. All I could see was the beauty that lay beneath the hurt. It is now made clear. I found myself staring at myself for a long time. I thought, Oh God, she's so freaking lovely.
